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All in The Family: Mother and Son Charged in Murder of Mississippi Couple

Jackson, Mississippi[NOTE: Corrected story to reflect Matt’s comment below. He was right, and I was sloppy. Thanks, Matt.]

It’s time for an other installment of All in The Family, a feature of PBB where we focus on family members who team up to commit crime. Today’s spotlight shines on a mother and son from Jackson, Mississippi who believe that “the family that slays together, stays together”. Daniel and Addie Clayton are accused of murdering Cyrus Brunner and Nora Lee Acuna in an awful chain of events that began with a traffic accident. After the son hit Brunner’s car, the two worked out an off-the-books deal for Clayton to pay for the damages. When the innocent couple came to the Clayton’s home to pick up the second payment, however, the shit hit the fan. Brunner reportedly insulted Addie Clayton, leading Daniel Clayton to do what any sane man would: shoot the couple to death while they were idling in their car. Police say that Daniel Clayton hauled the bodies off to a dump spot, and his mother Addie picked up up afterwards.

Daniel Clayton is charged with two counts of murder; Addie Clayton faces accessory charges. But really, how much blame does she shoulder? Wouldn’t any mother try and help her son cover up a heinous and random double murder? She’s be a bad mother if she did anything less than aid and abet a felony!

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  1. I know the victims. I hope these two pay for what they have done, severly.

  2. I know the victims. I hope these two pay for what they have done, severly.

  3. Check your facts because the story is that the MURDERER hit Brunners car.

  4. Check your facts because the story is that the MURDERER hit Brunners car.

  5. I think you’re still off a bit here… the article says that Brunner was owed the money, not paying the money.
    In any case, no car or insult is worth shooting two people over.

  6. I think you’re still off a bit here… the article says that Brunner was owed the money, not paying the money.
    In any case, no car or insult is worth shooting two people over.

  7. Got it. Thanks, Molly.

  8. Got it. Thanks, Molly.

  9. Got any information on the Claytons: like what made them do such a thing? Is this an isolated incident, or have they done other “family things” together?

  10. Got any information on the Claytons: like what made them do such a thing? Is this an isolated incident, or have they done other “family things” together?

  11. Shut the F*** up!! Why would you act like this is some game?!! Nora Lee Acuna was my mother and those two people who did this deserve to suffer more than death!! My mother did nothing to those people!!! She was the nicest person you could ever meet!!! She wouldn’t hurt a fly!!! SHE DIDN’T DESERVE THIS!!!!! Her boyfriend didn’t deserve this either!! Nobody deserves something like this for such a stupid reason!!!!

  12. Shut the F*** up!! Why would you act like this is some game?!! Nora Lee Acuna was my mother and those two people who did this deserve to suffer more than death!! My mother did nothing to those people!!! She was the nicest person you could ever meet!!! She wouldn’t hurt a fly!!! SHE DIDN’T DESERVE THIS!!!!! Her boyfriend didn’t deserve this either!! Nobody deserves something like this for such a stupid reason!!!!

  13. Stevie, neither I nor my readers think this is a game. We’re all sickened by this tragedy. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

    I’m so sorry.

  14. Stevie, neither I nor my readers think this is a game. We’re all sickened by this tragedy. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

    I’m so sorry.

  15. I just attended Cy’s funeral yesterday. Over 1000 people attended. This stupid, foolish, senseless act of violence has touched and hurt many people. I hope the Clatyon’s get what they deserve.

  16. I just attended Cy’s funeral yesterday. Over 1000 people attended. This stupid, foolish, senseless act of violence has touched and hurt many people. I hope the Clatyon’s get what they deserve.

  17. These mother son team conspired to kill this innocent couple. Out of the compassion of his heart, the victim, Cyrus, empathized with Daniel and worked out a deal with him instead of contacting the insurance. It seems he was lured to a premeditated murder. Daniel knew he was coming and probably thought he was coming alone. He planned it, I am sure of it! He wanted to walk free. His mother I am sure knew what was going to happen and stayed inside. Of course, Daniel said Cyrus “insulted” his mother. Give me a BREAK! The dead cannot defend themselves!!! Only a murderer, a stupid one at that, (but aren’t all murderers stupid and crazy?) would try to come up with some insane reason as to why someone would deserve to be murdered! NO ONE deserves to be murdered! Cyrus was a Christian who had a heart of gold and was loved by THOUSANDS of people!!!! I repeat THOUSANDS! Someone lost a son, a brother, a cousin, a nephew, a friend, a godson, a brother in Christ. May his memory be eternal! Nora, though I have never met her, was a mother of two, a wonderful woman. THIS IS A TRAGEDY! Two people cut down in their youth. Cyrus, an incredibly talented, intellegent, wonderful person, lost his life at 33. He will never see his wedding, a child of his own. His family and friends will truly miss him. There is no punishment on earth that could fit this crime!!!!

  18. These mother son team conspired to kill this innocent couple. Out of the compassion of his heart, the victim, Cyrus, empathized with Daniel and worked out a deal with him instead of contacting the insurance. It seems he was lured to a premeditated murder. Daniel knew he was coming and probably thought he was coming alone. He planned it, I am sure of it! He wanted to walk free. His mother I am sure knew what was going to happen and stayed inside. Of course, Daniel said Cyrus “insulted” his mother. Give me a BREAK! The dead cannot defend themselves!!! Only a murderer, a stupid one at that, (but aren’t all murderers stupid and crazy?) would try to come up with some insane reason as to why someone would deserve to be murdered! NO ONE deserves to be murdered! Cyrus was a Christian who had a heart of gold and was loved by THOUSANDS of people!!!! I repeat THOUSANDS! Someone lost a son, a brother, a cousin, a nephew, a friend, a godson, a brother in Christ. May his memory be eternal! Nora, though I have never met her, was a mother of two, a wonderful woman. THIS IS A TRAGEDY! Two people cut down in their youth. Cyrus, an incredibly talented, intellegent, wonderful person, lost his life at 33. He will never see his wedding, a child of his own. His family and friends will truly miss him. There is no punishment on earth that could fit this crime!!!!

  19. Cyrus Brunner (the gentlemen killed) was one of my best friends in life and I hope that little brat and his mom fry for what they did. Justice will be served. As a mother myself I wouldn’t cover for my son if he intentionally killed someone. I’d call the cops and have his butt thrown in jail, but my son probably wouldn’t do anything like that because I’m bringing him up with morals and values and am not a crack hore like that evil bitch.

  20. Cyrus Brunner (the gentlemen killed) was one of my best friends in life and I hope that little brat and his mom fry for what they did. Justice will be served. As a mother myself I wouldn’t cover for my son if he intentionally killed someone. I’d call the cops and have his butt thrown in jail, but my son probably wouldn’t do anything like that because I’m bringing him up with morals and values and am not a crack hore like that evil bitch.

  21. I knew Cy Brunner and his family during High School in Santa Barbara, Goleta ( Isla Vista ). These are good, honorable people. I am saddened that I was not made aware of this until months after the fact. That being said, it goes without saying that this is a unfair tragedy beyond comprehension. To know Cy was to like, respect, admire him; anyone else who knew him, and reads this, will agree. He was always looked at as a leader, charismatic and strong both on the inside and out. I simply don’t understand why things like this happen in our world. There was nobody less deserving of this than Cy. Cyrus Brunner, may you rest in peace, until we someday see you again. Our memories of you will live on. JP

  22. I knew Cy Brunner and his family during High School in Santa Barbara, Goleta ( Isla Vista ). These are good, honorable people. I am saddened that I was not made aware of this until months after the fact. That being said, it goes without saying that this is a unfair tragedy beyond comprehension. To know Cy was to like, respect, admire him; anyone else who knew him, and reads this, will agree. He was always looked at as a leader, charismatic and strong both on the inside and out. I simply don’t understand why things like this happen in our world. There was nobody less deserving of this than Cy. Cyrus Brunner, may you rest in peace, until we someday see you again. Our memories of you will live on. JP

  23. Nora was a friend of mine and I can assure you she would never hurt anyone. In fact in the four years I knew her I saw her open her heart and home up to many people. I too believe that she and Cy were lured to the house so the SCUM who killed them could get out of a minor vehicular and insurance charge. They were both very trusting people and that may have been their undoing. What a sad world. The only justice would be for that sorry trash excuse for a mother and her psychopathic son to FRY for what they did. I know Nora’s son who repsonded on here too, and he is a sweet boy who is now lost without a mother. Nora’s daughter is now without her, as is her darling little granddaughter. So sad…rest in peace Nora and Cy.

  24. Nora was a friend of mine and I can assure you she would never hurt anyone. In fact in the four years I knew her I saw her open her heart and home up to many people. I too believe that she and Cy were lured to the house so the SCUM who killed them could get out of a minor vehicular and insurance charge. They were both very trusting people and that may have been their undoing. What a sad world. The only justice would be for that sorry trash excuse for a mother and her psychopathic son to FRY for what they did. I know Nora’s son who repsonded on here too, and he is a sweet boy who is now lost without a mother. Nora’s daughter is now without her, as is her darling little granddaughter. So sad…rest in peace Nora and Cy.

  25. I just wanted to send my condolences to the family and friends. I didn’t know either of them but I imagine they were much like my parents, kind and forgiving. This selfish mother and son should both be punished, the son probably planned it and the stupid mother knew.

    As for covering up for your childs wrong doing, my parents would take me down to the jail themselves and make sure I confess EVERYTHING! As a new mother, I am definately going to teach my daughter that there are consequences for our actions.

    Bless ALL the victims in this sad case.

  26. I just wanted to send my condolences to the family and friends. I didn’t know either of them but I imagine they were much like my parents, kind and forgiving. This selfish mother and son should both be punished, the son probably planned it and the stupid mother knew.

    As for covering up for your childs wrong doing, my parents would take me down to the jail themselves and make sure I confess EVERYTHING! As a new mother, I am definately going to teach my daughter that there are consequences for our actions.

    Bless ALL the victims in this sad case.

  27. People are CRAZY! This lady and her friend killed for what a couple hundred bucks. When you read a story you think wowo how sad. BUT when you read a reply from her son and the rest of their family and friends it’s more than a story. It makes me think of my own kids and how they would be DEVESTATED if someone hurt their mommy. Stevie, I am so sorry that your mom is gone. She can NEVER be replaced. I don’t know how old you are But I pray for peace in your life. And that Happiness finds you someday soon. God bless you and the rest of your family. I know it’s easy for me to say and please don’t take offense. Try not to be angry at the world. I understand being angry at them , just don’t let it consume you. If so they have control of you. I know from experience. I was molested as a little girl and I was angry at everybody for most of my teens and early 20’s. Then I had an epiphany…I am giving that bastard control over my life! Stevie, mourn your mom, then search for happiness. I didnt know her but as a mom myself, I bet that’s what she would want. For her son to be happy and at peace. Believe me JUSTICE will prevail. God Bless you Stevie

  28. People are CRAZY! This lady and her friend killed for what a couple hundred bucks. When you read a story you think wowo how sad. BUT when you read a reply from her son and the rest of their family and friends it’s more than a story. It makes me think of my own kids and how they would be DEVESTATED if someone hurt their mommy. Stevie, I am so sorry that your mom is gone. She can NEVER be replaced. I don’t know how old you are But I pray for peace in your life. And that Happiness finds you someday soon. God bless you and the rest of your family. I know it’s easy for me to say and please don’t take offense. Try not to be angry at the world. I understand being angry at them , just don’t let it consume you. If so they have control of you. I know from experience. I was molested as a little girl and I was angry at everybody for most of my teens and early 20’s. Then I had an epiphany…I am giving that bastard control over my life! Stevie, mourn your mom, then search for happiness. I didnt know her but as a mom myself, I bet that’s what she would want. For her son to be happy and at peace. Believe me JUSTICE will prevail. God Bless you Stevie

  29. If anyone hears what happens to the Clayton’s please post it. I would like to hear that they are both currently serving a life sentence, but have not heard a word about what, if anything is going to happen to those two.
    So please, post any information that you may find out.

    Love to the Brunners.

  30. If anyone hears what happens to the Clayton’s please post it. I would like to hear that they are both currently serving a life sentence, but have not heard a word about what, if anything is going to happen to those two.
    So please, post any information that you may find out.

    Love to the Brunners.

  31. Someone who know the truth abo

    All of you who think you knew Cy & are praising his so called “accomplishments” must be conveniently forgetting the true Cyrus Dean Brunner. The man who spent time in jail more in more than 1 state for various crimes! ( Google it if you want ) If you all honestly believe that drugs were not at all involved, then why has there not been a release of the toxicology reports on the victims???? They may have been at the alleged murders’ home to pick up money for a car accident, but were they “clean” when they were there to pick up this money…what lead Cy ( this so called “Christian” )to make derogatory comments about a woman who was his elder. Are we not taught to respect our elders??? I do not know Ms.Acuna-but it is interesting that she “left” her children in California with her parents to move across the country with a man 10 years her junior? Believe what you want…some believe in Karma…Cy got his!

  32. Someone who know the truth about CY!

    All of you who think you knew Cy & are praising his so called “accomplishments” must be conveniently forgetting the true Cyrus Dean Brunner. The man who spent time in jail more in more than 1 state for various crimes! ( Google it if you want ) If you all honestly believe that drugs were not at all involved, then why has there not been a release of the toxicology reports on the victims???? They may have been at the alleged murders’ home to pick up money for a car accident, but were they “clean” when they were there to pick up this money…what lead Cy ( this so called “Christian” )to make derogatory comments about a woman who was his elder. Are we not taught to respect our elders??? I do not know Ms.Acuna-but it is interesting that she “left” her children in California with her parents to move across the country with a man 10 years her junior? Believe what you want…some believe in Karma…Cy got his!

  33. The prior posting is one of the more pathetic, ignorant and poorly implemented attempts at defamation I’ve seen.

    First, when you say “think we knew”, as if to imply that we didn’t really know Cy, you have no idea what you’re talking about. Some of us grew up with Cy and knew him as a close friend for years. He was one of the most open, “what you see is what you get”, wholesome friends I ever had, even in moments of disagreement. Of course we knew him. I personally can testify not only to the overall integrity of Cy’s character, but that of his family and siblings. The Brunners are the classic American success story.

    None of our lives are perfect and without the occasional challenge — however your attempts to imply that any event in Cy’s past would reflect on his overall character speaks volumes for how little -YOU- knew him. It is truly sad to read the cruel, baseless words you wrote on this page. Moreover, you are foolish to pick on him even now, because Cy was so well known in the community. You are going to find hundreds of people, if not more, that will agree with my assessment of Cy’s overall integrity.

    Cy Brunner is, was, and always will be considered an upstanding citizen in my home town of Santa Barbara and the surrounding areas of Goleta, and Isla Vista; a true friend to all, who those of us that -REALLY- knew him will always remember as such.

  34. The prior posting is one of the more pathetic, ignorant and poorly implemented attempts at defamation I’ve seen.

    First, when you say “think we knew”, as if to imply that we didn’t really know Cy, you have no idea what you’re talking about. Some of us grew up with Cy and knew him as a close friend for years. He was one of the most open, “what you see is what you get”, wholesome friends I ever had, even in moments of disagreement. Of course we knew him. I personally can testify not only to the overall integrity of Cy’s character, but that of his family and siblings. The Brunners are the classic American success story.

    None of our lives are perfect and without the occasional challenge — however your attempts to imply that any event in Cy’s past would reflect on his overall character speaks volumes for how little -YOU- knew him. It is truly sad to read the cruel, baseless words you wrote on this page. Moreover, you are foolish to pick on him even now, because Cy was so well known in the community. You are going to find hundreds of people, if not more, that will agree with my assessment of Cy’s overall integrity.

    Cy Brunner is, was, and always will be considered an upstanding citizen in my home town of Santa Barbara and the surrounding areas of Goleta, and Isla Vista; a true friend to all, who those of us that -REALLY- knew him will always remember as such.

  35. Someone who knew HIM...

    I still live in Santa Barbara & talk to people who knew Cy & the entire Brunner clan. Yes there may be a few out there that would say something “good” about Cy but to say that “Cy Brunner is, was, and always will be considered an upstanding citizen in my home town of Santa Barbara and the surrounding areas of Goleta, and Isla Vista; a true friend to all, who those of us that -REALLY- knew him will always remember as such” YOU ARE SO VERY WRONG! The statement is beyond laughable! I guess you & I don’t speak with the same people who knew Cy. Cy was never a upstanding citizen-police reports are public record, you should check it out. Cy did more damage to more people & their families than I guess you were ever made aware of. I have watched as people who think they knew Cy or are loyal to the Brunner family praise this so called “Christian” man for to long not to get some of the true facts out there. Yes, people can change…Cy never did. He continued to destroy the lives of most of those he came in contact with, including his own parents & siblings. He was given more than one opportunity to turn his life around & make amends for the wrongful acts he committed…just the way he died proves he did not take those opportunities. Those from his church may have a different opinion of the man he tried to be when he attended services & functions related to his faith. Some People have the ability to be who they want-when they want & that is exactly they kind of person Cy was. As for your statement ” The Brunner’s are the classic American success story”, I do wonder what kind of fantasy world you live in? Cy’s parents were divorced & then re-married, his siblings have had countless incidents with Santa Barbara County Law enforcement…if that is a American Success story, how do you define a failure??? I will not continue to argue this point, Cy always said he wouldn’t live to be a old man ( YES, that is how well I knew him) Believe what you want…I believe in KARMA & Cy did get his!

  36. Someone who knew HIM...

    I still live in Santa Barbara & talk to people who knew Cy & the entire Brunner clan. Yes there may be a few out there that would say something “good” about Cy but to say that “Cy Brunner is, was, and always will be considered an upstanding citizen in my home town of Santa Barbara and the surrounding areas of Goleta, and Isla Vista; a true friend to all, who those of us that -REALLY- knew him will always remember as such” YOU ARE SO VERY WRONG! The statement is beyond laughable! I guess you & I don’t speak with the same people who knew Cy. Cy was never a upstanding citizen-police reports are public record, you should check it out. Cy did more damage to more people & their families than I guess you were ever made aware of. I have watched as people who think they knew Cy or are loyal to the Brunner family praise this so called “Christian” man for to long not to get some of the true facts out there. Yes, people can change…Cy never did. He continued to destroy the lives of most of those he came in contact with, including his own parents & siblings. He was given more than one opportunity to turn his life around & make amends for the wrongful acts he committed…just the way he died proves he did not take those opportunities. Those from his church may have a different opinion of the man he tried to be when he attended services & functions related to his faith. Some People have the ability to be who they want-when they want & that is exactly they kind of person Cy was. As for your statement ” The Brunner’s are the classic American success story”, I do wonder what kind of fantasy world you live in? Cy’s parents were divorced & then re-married, his siblings have had countless incidents with Santa Barbara County Law enforcement…if that is a American Success story, how do you define a failure??? I will not continue to argue this point, Cy always said he wouldn’t live to be a old man ( YES, that is how well I knew him) Believe what you want…I believe in KARMA & Cy did get his!

  37. I look at this blog every once in awhile to see the status of the case, & was surprised to get e-mails that there had been postings on the blog. 1st after all these months all I can say is “WOW”…I expected to see some kind of information on the Clayton’s but this is just typical “Goleta Drama”! I too grew up with the Brunner family & was a close friend of Cy’s. I do not know Mr.Peterson,but I do feel for him.We all deal with death in different way’s and also tend to remember the dead at their best out of respect for them & their families. I do have to agree with some of the previous comments made by “Someone who knew him” Cy struggled with things in his personal life some of us will never be able to understand. He had it all…yet just never seamed to “have it all” at the right time. I’m sorry Mr. Peterson but your comment “You are going to find hundreds of people, if not more, that will agree with my assessment of Cy’s overall integrity” is so off base, I really do wonder if you did grow up with him or in Goleta? It is obvious from your previous comments on this blog that you were not even aware of Cy’s murder until months after it happened. Such a statement indicates that you hadn’t had much contact with Cy since high school? I waited a day to see if there was a out cry of support & agreement with your assessment of Cy’s overall integrity…We all get a e-mail when there is something posted on this blog & not 1 person has responded to you or “Someone who knew him”. I think that speaks volumes for Cy’s “overall integrity” & your knowledge of the person he was. Death is sad & murder is tragic…all things good & bad happen for a reason. It would be wonderful to see something good come out of his death. I was also acquainted with Daniel Bryant & his family now has a excellent foundation in his name that helps teens with emotional & or drug addiction problems. Has anyone heard if the Brunner’s are planning on doing something like this in Cy’s name?

  38. I look at this blog every once in awhile to see the status of the case, & was surprised to get e-mails that there had been postings on the blog. 1st after all these months all I can say is “WOW”…I expected to see some kind of information on the Clayton’s but this is just typical “Goleta Drama”! I too grew up with the Brunner family & was a close friend of Cy’s. I do not know Mr.Peterson,but I do feel for him.We all deal with death in different way’s and also tend to remember the dead at their best out of respect for them & their families. I do have to agree with some of the previous comments made by “Someone who knew him” Cy struggled with things in his personal life some of us will never be able to understand. He had it all…yet just never seamed to “have it all” at the right time. I’m sorry Mr. Peterson but your comment “You are going to find hundreds of people, if not more, that will agree with my assessment of Cy’s overall integrity” is so off base, I really do wonder if you did grow up with him or in Goleta? It is obvious from your previous comments on this blog that you were not even aware of Cy’s murder until months after it happened. Such a statement indicates that you hadn’t had much contact with Cy since high school? I waited a day to see if there was a out cry of support & agreement with your assessment of Cy’s overall integrity…We all get a e-mail when there is something posted on this blog & not 1 person has responded to you or “Someone who knew him”. I think that speaks volumes for Cy’s “overall integrity” & your knowledge of the person he was. Death is sad & murder is tragic…all things good & bad happen for a reason. It would be wonderful to see something good come out of his death. I was also acquainted with Daniel Bryant & his family now has a excellent foundation in his name that helps teens with emotional & or drug addiction problems. Has anyone heard if the Brunner’s are planning on doing something like this in Cy’s name?

  39. The first section of this reply is directed to the anonymous writer who submitted the recent posting to this page of 5/8/07, at 1:00pm, under the alias “Someone who knew HIM…” — As you so properly acknowledge, indeed there are “a few”, and even more, who would speak favorably of Cy — as I had suggested, while noting specifically that Cy was well liked in the community by many. Thank you for acknowledging that Cy was well liked.

    As for your vague, underhanded references to Cy’s historical behavior: None of us are interested in the wake of this tragedy to scrutinize citations, childish squabbles, or foolish mistakes and/or legal minutia that Cy may have faced during his socially active youth and subsequent early adulthood. You cannot, with any degree of credibility, hope to issue a tabloid-style summary attacks against his good character with sinister references to “police reports” while failing to properly articulate the entire, complex sequence of events — in each case — and the multifarious circumstances as they may relate to all parties involved. Regardless of life challenges, the chronological facts do, and will continue to paint a clear picture of this victim: Cy was a good person of Christian faith, raised by a very special family that has made lasting contributions to the community. And when you write here, leave his parents alone, they are good people.

    In your posting, you asked, “How do you define failure?” to which I submit the following: In this case, anonymous writer, I tend to look towards (1) The character of that author (you) who goes out of their way to defend a hateful, belligerent position such as yours; that seeks to justify how -ANYONE-, Cy, or any other human being, “did get his! (‘karma’) [sic]”, despite your skewed rationalization(s), in light of such tragic loss of life. (2) I define failure within the context of the ambiguous, erroneous insults which you so pathetically attempt to dispense within this public forum. (3) I define failure in totality while noting the abysmal disposition of the perpetrators of these tragic events against Cy.

    (continued)

  40. The first section of this reply is directed to the anonymous writer who submitted the recent posting to this page of 5/8/07, at 1:00pm, under the alias “Someone who knew HIM…” — As you so properly acknowledge, indeed there are “a few”, and even more, who would speak favorably of Cy — as I had suggested, while noting specifically that Cy was well liked in the community by many. Thank you for acknowledging that Cy was well liked.

    As for your vague, underhanded references to Cy’s historical behavior: None of us are interested in the wake of this tragedy to scrutinize citations, childish squabbles, or foolish mistakes and/or legal minutia that Cy may have faced during his socially active youth and subsequent early adulthood. You cannot, with any degree of credibility, hope to issue a tabloid-style summary attacks against his good character with sinister references to “police reports” while failing to properly articulate the entire, complex sequence of events — in each case — and the multifarious circumstances as they may relate to all parties involved. Regardless of life challenges, the chronological facts do, and will continue to paint a clear picture of this victim: Cy was a good person of Christian faith, raised by a very special family that has made lasting contributions to the community. And when you write here, leave his parents alone, they are good people.

    In your posting, you asked, “How do you define failure?” to which I submit the following: In this case, anonymous writer, I tend to look towards (1) The character of that author (you) who goes out of their way to defend a hateful, belligerent position such as yours; that seeks to justify how -ANYONE-, Cy, or any other human being, “did get his! (‘karma’) [sic]”, despite your skewed rationalization(s), in light of such tragic loss of life. (2) I define failure within the context of the ambiguous, erroneous insults which you so pathetically attempt to dispense within this public forum. (3) I define failure in totality while noting the abysmal disposition of the perpetrators of these tragic events against Cy.

    (continued)

  41. (Continued from prior posting)

    Your inaccurate broad generalization that Cy was “…never an upstanding citizen…” is obviously an imprecise emblematic slur which clearly seeks to further your defamatory, hurtful agenda. You speak of those who “…think they knew Cy…”, while failing to acknowledge that my posts of March 6, and May 8, 2007 specifically represented that I absolutely did know Cy and would testify without hesitation to his good character. Cy will be remembered the same way the local media immediately and correctly described him when reporting on this tragedy within multiple venues: As a well known, charismatic member of the community, who excelled in school activities; as a multifaceted sports star; and as others here have so correctly suggested — as a energetic, good spirited friend to all of us, who we will never forget.

  42. (Continued from prior posting)

    Your inaccurate broad generalization that Cy was “…never an upstanding citizen…” is obviously an imprecise emblematic slur which clearly seeks to further your defamatory, hurtful agenda. You speak of those who “…think they knew Cy…”, while failing to acknowledge that my posts of March 6, and May 8, 2007 specifically represented that I absolutely did know Cy and would testify without hesitation to his good character. Cy will be remembered the same way the local media immediately and correctly described him when reporting on this tragedy within multiple venues: As a well known, charismatic member of the community, who excelled in school activities; as a multifaceted sports star; and as others here have so correctly suggested — as a energetic, good spirited friend to all of us, who we will never forget.

  43. The second section of this reply is directed at the anonymous author who submitted the recent libelous post of 5/9/07, at 2:34pm, under the alias of “Goleata Local” — The first part of your obfuscated post which refers to “Goleta Drama” is so poorly written, I am at a complete loss to understand what point, if any, you are attempting to make within your textual rant. You go on to acknowledge that you were “…expecting to see some kind of information…on the Clayton’s…”, which suggests that you are indeed affiliated with the perpetrator of the felonious acts committed against the victims in this case. Much can be learned by the readers of this page from such observation.

    You then write “…We all deal with death in different way’s…” and that Cy “[sic]…just never ‘seamed’ to ‘have it all’…” while disputing my prior correct observation that you will find hundreds of people (or more, in this case) who will agree with my positive assessment of Cy.

    In response, Mr. “Goleata Local”, I suggest that you reflect on your own flawed logic before disputing the prior posts to this page which are entirely based on fact. Indeed you will find hundreds of people who remember Cy in a positive light. Local media reported over a thousand in attendance at his funeral. Yes, I was not aware of these events until months after they happened. I no longer live in the Santa Barbara area, having settled in Phoenix a number of years ago. It was not until a mutual friend put me on notice that I learned of these tragic events. Whoever you are, Anonymous writer, you are on the wrong side of the argument in foolishly attempting to defame Cy. Notwithstanding your hateful rhetoric, importantly, the facts in this case serve to correctly document Cy’s lifelong reputation as a great friend who we will all miss dearly.

  44. The second section of this reply is directed at the anonymous author who submitted the recent libelous post of 5/9/07, at 2:34pm, under the alias of “Goleata Local” — The first part of your obfuscated post which refers to “Goleta Drama” is so poorly written, I am at a complete loss to understand what point, if any, you are attempting to make within your textual rant. You go on to acknowledge that you were “…expecting to see some kind of information…on the Clayton’s…”, which suggests that you are indeed affiliated with the perpetrator of the felonious acts committed against the victims in this case. Much can be learned by the readers of this page from such observation.

    You then write “…We all deal with death in different way’s…” and that Cy “[sic]…just never ‘seamed’ to ‘have it all’…” while disputing my prior correct observation that you will find hundreds of people (or more, in this case) who will agree with my positive assessment of Cy.

    In response, Mr. “Goleata Local”, I suggest that you reflect on your own flawed logic before disputing the prior posts to this page which are entirely based on fact. Indeed you will find hundreds of people who remember Cy in a positive light. Local media reported over a thousand in attendance at his funeral. Yes, I was not aware of these events until months after they happened. I no longer live in the Santa Barbara area, having settled in Phoenix a number of years ago. It was not until a mutual friend put me on notice that I learned of these tragic events. Whoever you are, Anonymous writer, you are on the wrong side of the argument in foolishly attempting to defame Cy. Notwithstanding your hateful rhetoric, importantly, the facts in this case serve to correctly document Cy’s lifelong reputation as a great friend who we will all miss dearly.

  45. Please stop. I was Cy’s girlfriend before he went to Mississippi in 1996. Cy’s death was tragic. The Brunner family deserves more respect than they are being given on this page. Rest in peace Cy…

  46. Please stop. I was Cy’s girlfriend before he went to Mississippi in 1996. Cy’s death was tragic. The Brunner family deserves more respect than they are being given on this page. Rest in peace Cy…

  47. Agreed, Lia. You should tell some more people who really knew him, as we did, about this page.

  48. Agreed, Lia. You should tell some more people who really knew him, as we did, about this page.

  49. i also know the Brunner’s. yes it is sad to see people saying bad things about them. very disrespectful. I agree whole-heartedly with the observations of mr. peterson, Cy did have a lot of friends and was well liked in our community. out of respect for cy and his family i think who ever is writing negative things about Cy should stop.

  50. i also know the Brunner’s. yes it is sad to see people saying bad things about them. very disrespectful. I agree whole-heartedly with the observations of mr. peterson, Cy did have a lot of friends and was well liked in our community. out of respect for cy and his family i think who ever is writing negative things about Cy should stop.

  51. How sad it is to google your brother and find so much hate on this blog. I don’t know who you are that think you “know him” but if you are bold enough to say such terrible things not only of Cy but of my family in a public forum, the LEAST you could do is be bold enough to identify yourself. What a coward! Before you go blasting away you should really get your facts straight! As far as the case – for those who are truly interested, the shooter and his mother has been formally indicted by the grand jury in Mississippi.

  52. How sad it is to google your brother and find so much hate on this blog. I don’t know who you are that think you “know him” but if you are bold enough to say such terrible things not only of Cy but of my family in a public forum, the LEAST you could do is be bold enough to identify yourself. What a coward! Before you go blasting away you should really get your facts straight! As far as the case – for those who are truly interested, the shooter and his mother has been formally indicted by the grand jury in Mississippi.

  53. On April 9th, 2007, Daniel Clayton was formally charged with 2 counts of murder which would give him life in prison if convicted. He is currently in jail. Addie Clayton was formally charged with 2 counts of accessory after the fact which holds a maximum 5 year term for each count if convicted. She has been out of jail on bond since December 7, 2006. It took until March to get the bolistics report from the crime lab in Mississippi confirming gunshots were fired from his gun. Toxicology reports were run and have not yet been returned. According to the DA’s office in Mississippi it may take another 1-2 years before any of this is over.

  54. On April 9th, 2007, Daniel Clayton was formally charged with 2 counts of murder which would give him life in prison if convicted. He is currently in jail. Addie Clayton was formally charged with 2 counts of accessory after the fact which holds a maximum 5 year term for each count if convicted. She has been out of jail on bond since December 7, 2006. It took until March to get the bolistics report from the crime lab in Mississippi confirming gunshots were fired from his gun. Toxicology reports were run and have not yet been returned. According to the DA’s office in Mississippi it may take another 1-2 years before any of this is over.

  55. This is the first time I have seen anything on this case and I can honestly tell you that I do not personally know anyone that is involved in it. It does not matter what the character of the victims was. Noone deserves to be murdered as they sit in their car, especially over some supposed “derogoratory comments”.

    My prayers go out to the families of the victims, who I tend to believe were good people.

  56. This is the first time I have seen anything on this case and I can honestly tell you that I do not personally know anyone that is involved in it. It does not matter what the character of the victims was. Noone deserves to be murdered as they sit in their car, especially over some supposed “derogoratory comments”.

    My prayers go out to the families of the victims, who I tend to believe were good people.

  57. Thank you for the update Jami, keep us posted.

  58. Thank you for the update Jami, keep us posted.

  59. To Someone who Knew HIM:
    You have some nerve posting on a website titled Parents Behaving Badly. If you are who I think you are, you are the epitome of parents behaving badly considering you ABANDONED your daughter. Grow up, get a life, and quit posting derragatory comments about the Brunner family. This is a forum addressed to the murderers, not to bash the victim’s family. And you want to hear karma? Karma is your daughter figuring out you are a complete and utter fruitcake all on her very own. HIS daughter is a completely different child from when YOU left her. Two cheers for single fathers! Talk about bad karma coming back to bite you in the ass!

  60. To Someone who Knew HIM:
    You have some nerve posting on a website titled Parents Behaving Badly. If you are who I think you are, you are the epitome of parents behaving badly considering you ABANDONED your daughter. Grow up, get a life, and quit posting derragatory comments about the Brunner family. This is a forum addressed to the murderers, not to bash the victim’s family. And you want to hear karma? Karma is your daughter figuring out you are a complete and utter fruitcake all on her very own. HIS daughter is a completely different child from when YOU left her. Two cheers for single fathers! Talk about bad karma coming back to bite you in the ass!

  61. I FOUND AND READ THIS WEB SITE FOR THE FIRST TIME 3 DAYS AGO. I FOUND ALL OF THE COMMENTS VERY INTERESTING AND I APPRECIATE ALL THE GOOD THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN SAID….I GUESS IN OUR SOCIETY IT IS PROPER TO HONER THE DEAD WITH POSITIVE HOUGHTS. OF COURSE, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOME WHO HAVE NEGATIVE THINGS TO SAY WHICH DOESN’T BOTHER ME.
    CY DID SOME BAD THINGS IN HIS LIFE TOO. SO HAVE ALL OF YOU, AS HAVE I. IS FAILURE OR SUCESS IN A LIFE LIVED, SOMETHING WE ALL VOTE ON? SO LET’S ALL VOTE ON IT…..ON THIS BLOG I THINK CY WOULD WIN. BUT, I’M SO SORRY TO DISSAPPOINT YOU ALL, WE DON’T GET TO VOTE.
    I THINK EACH OF US SHOULD GET OUT A SPREAD SHEET AND MAKE 2 COLUMNS: COLUMN 1 WILL BE OUR ASSETS… EVERY THING WE HAVE DONE GOOD OR RIGHT IN OUR LIFE AND COLUMN 2 WILL BE ALL OF OUR LIABILITIES, FAILURES AND EVERYTHING WE HAVE DONE WRONG. THEN IF COLUMN 2 IS LONGER THAN COLUMN 1 YOU CAN CONSIDER YOURSELF A HELL BOUND ASSHOLE. IF IT IS THE OTHER WAY AROUND YOU ARE A SUCCESS BOUND FOR GLORY.
    ALL I AM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT IF GOD IS KEEPING SCORE, WE ARE ALL GOING TO HELL. MAN TENDS TO LOOK ON THE OUTSIDE…..THE SPREAD SHEET… BUT GOD KNOWS THE HEART. I AM SURE GLAD IT WILL BE GOD WHO JUDGES CY’S HEART. WHY? BECAUSE HIS LOVE AND GRACE AND MERCY IS IN ESHAUSTABLE AND CAN MAKE YOU RIGHTEOUS IN HIS SIGHT. SOME MAY THINK THAT ISN’T FAIR CAUSE THE THIEF ON THE CROSS ACCEPTED THE MERCY OF GOD JUST BEFORE HE DIED AND ENDED UP IN PARADISE. WELL, ONLY GOD GETS TO VOTE.
    SO…..WHY NOT LET CY SPEAK FOR HIMSELF.
    NOT SO YOU CAN KEEP SCORE BUT THAT YOU MIGHT GET A SMALL GLIMPSE OF HIS HEART, AND PART OF THE INNER STRUGGLE HE HAD. WHAT PUT ME TO SHAME WAS HIS WILLINGNESS AND DETERMINATION TO FIGHT FOR KEEPING HIS HEART SOFT TOWARDS GOD.
    THE FOLLOWING IS A SPEECH HE GAVE AT BELLHAVEN COLLEGE IN JACKSON MISSISSIPPI IN 2002 TO A FELLOWSHIP OF CHRISTIAN ATHLETES MEETING. STILL EVERY DAY I COMMIT CYRUS TO THE MERCY AND GRACE OF GOD. IT IS THE ONLY PLACE IN THE INTIRE UNIVERSE WHERE THERE IS JUSTICE AND EQUITY.

    Acknowledgments:

    I would like to thank the FCA leadership team for giving me the opportunity to share a part of my life in hopes that it may reconcile someone to Christ. I am here tonight out of love for God and out of love for you my beloved fellow schoolmates.
    I would also like to extend thanks for those of you who prayed for me to help me find the courage, strength, and words necessary to impact at least one life in here tonight. Glory be to God for that.

    In the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit; one God.

    Prayer:

    Oh Christ our God, who at all times and in every hour, in heaven and on earth art worshipped and glorified: who art longsuffering, merciful and compassionate; who loves the just and shows mercy upon the sinner; who calls all to salvation through the promise of good things to come; O Lord, in this receive our supplications, and direct our lives according to your commandments. Sanctify our souls, purify our bodies, correct our thoughts, cleanse our minds; deliver us from all trials, evil and distress. Surround us with your holy angels so that guided and guarded by them we may attain to the unity of the Christian faith and to the knowledge of your unapproachable glory. For you are blessed unto ages of ages. Amen

    Introduction:

    My name is Cyrus Brunner, I was born in Isla Vista, California, right outside of Santa Barbara. I am 29 years old, a junior here at Belhaven College, and I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. What I hope to do tonight is to share part of my life with you in hopes to help you to struggle through adversity in your lives. I will tell you where I have been, what happened, and what its like now. I am hoping to convey the idea of true repentance, forgiveness, and ultimately God’s love for us. I was born the 3rd of 7 children. I grew up in the most densely populated square mile west of the Mississippi River and it was filled with college students. About 20,000 of them.
    I attended elementary school with kids from 28 foreign countries including, Russia, Japan, Korea, Argentina, Laos, Vietnam, Cambodia,
    Canada, Ireland, Mexico, Brazil, the Philippines, Sweden, and Ghana, just to name a few. I was outgoing and enjoyed my childhood. I was athletic, energetic, and a good student. I attended St. Athanasius Orthodox Christian Church every week.

    Junior High was a little different than elementary school. Weird things started happening to my body. I got suspended once for fighting. I did track and field for the school while I enjoyed competing on independent club and youth teams for football, basketball and baseball. Basketball, football and baseball went well, as I excelled and worked hard in each. I worked at a little market at the age of 13 and I got drunk for the first time at the Christmas work party. I smoked pot for the first time also at the age of 13, right before the fall production for theatre in which I had a fairly big part. It was a comedy thank heaven.

    High School welcome me, and I it. Throughout my 4 yars there I earned 8 varsity letters in 4 sports: wrestling, baseball, football and soccer. I had everything going for me. I broke our school’s single season rushing record for football my senior year, as well as the school’s single season and career homerun records for baseball. During those 4 years, I dabbled with marijuana and alcohol a little more frequently and tried ecstasy for the first time at 15. Pot use became more frequent and started going to class high. I would drink on weekends and got into a lot of fights with college students. I still excelled at athletics earning all southern California honors in football, baseball, and wrestling. I dealt with periodical anorexia during wrestling season and always had a girlfriend whom I was never faithful to. I received a lot of positive press from the newspaper. I was like a little celebrity in my county. This was not enough for me. I tried cocaine for the first time at 17. I tried acid during my senior year at age 18, as well as mushrooms. Right after I graduated I tried cocaine again, which shortly thereafter, would aid in robbing me of the next 8-9 years of my life. I graduated with a 3.51 GPA, and chose to attend Westmont College in Montecito, California about 30 minutes from home. I lost my scholarship after 1 semester due to a 1.2 GPA and I knew I was a full blown drug addict.
    The next few years were sort of a blur, so I am going to summarize my terror for you as best I can. Not in any particular order, these things happened in my life: At the age of 19, I tried crystal methane and abused that for a good while. One I had was at the end of a 3-day high on speed; I ate some magic mushrooms and started to severely hallucinate. Before long, I felt my heart pounding with intense pressure and at an extremely high rate. I thought for sure that this was the end. I refused to call 911 because I knew that I would be arrested. The last thing I remember was falling down on a couch. I didn’t get off that couch for two days. To this day I believe I had a mild heart attack. This experience did not change my outlook however as I bought more speed as soon as I had the power to walk. At the age of 21 I went to jail for a non-drug charge for 32 days. During this period of my life I consumed via a cylinder shaped object with holes a both ends, close to a gram of cocaine per day, 60.00 value. A 12 pack of beer or equivalent and 2 grams of marijuana, on average. Not to mention I used each of the drugs previously mentioned when my drug of choice, cocaine, was not available. This continued for the next 5-6 years.

    I was constantly involved in bar room fights, and most all other things associated with drug and alcohol addiction. Finally, one day, I hit what they call my low. I weighing about 158 pounds, I was using cocaine in preference to eating, drinking, sleeping and any sort of relationship possible. I started to see and hear things that were not there. Through my drug abuse I had induced a state of paranoid schizophrenia. I truly believed that I saw men in fatigues on rooftops across the street waiting to shoot me on sight. I heard the police calling for me to come out of my apartment to be arrested. I sat in a closet for 7-8 hours sweating profusely until finally reason brought me to make a phone call to my mother. I had stolen from my loved ones. I had manipulated for money and anything else I felt I had to have. I had a gun stuck to my head for 20.00 at one point for a drug deal gone bad. I tried to move away to other states, but a strange thing kept happening…No matter where I went, I would run into myself before too long.
    Throughout this period of my life, I am sure that God never left my side. My guardian angel must be a stud because I put him through the mud. I have walked away from 3 high speed car accidents without a mark, just a little back pain. God was constantly knocking on the door to my heart as he does all of us. My heart was cluttered, my house was dirty, and I was so stricken with fear and pride that I refused to let him in. He picked me up off my face so many times and I still refused to accept his love. I didn’t realize that it was Him who wanted me so desperately to amend my way of life. I knew what I was doing was wrong, and I still did it. There were some external circumstances that I blamed, some with validity, but ultimately, I lit the pipe, I tipped the beer, I snorted the coke. Finally, with the help of God, I had to take responsibility for my actions and ask someone for help. What a blow to my pride that was. Do you ever feel like no one will understand your pain? Do you ever think that someone may judge you for that deep dark sin that lingers in your heart? Have you ever ever confessed a sin to God and yet still don’t feel quite right? I moved to Mississippi in the summer of 1998 and checked into a long-term drug and alcohol treatment center where I received a foundation to help me battle for a better life. God may never allow my mind to stop obsessing about drugs and alcohol but maybe he will. True heartfelt repentance, His unceasing forgiveness, and ultimately his love can change all that, if I let it.
    I stayed there for 123 days. I left against medial advice. I went clean for a year and then started drinking and drugging again. I squandered 11,500 dollars in two months. I began to smoke crack cocaine. This was another low point…Y’all it is only because of the grace of God I stand before you here tonight. I was using alcohol and marijuana occasionally last semester, and now I am clean and sober.
    My experience was like a little epiphany, I give the glory to God, because whether you know it or not, he worked with several of you in this room to help me recognize, on different occasions, what love is for the first time since I was fifteen years old. And now, I am not only receiving love from others, he poured out his grace and mercy on me and has allowed me to genuinely give love…In the last month I have experienced true joy for the first time in my life. This is real, and I am so grateful that I do not have the words to describe.
    Today, my life is very different than it was. Do I still make mistakes? Yes, everyday of my life. Do I still struggle with wanting to use alcohol and drugs? Yes, almost everyday of my life. Do I sin in other ways? Yes, every day of my life. For those of you who have had similar experiences I encourage you to ask for help. For those of you who struggle in other areas of your life, I also encourage you to talk to someone and ask for help. Regardless of what your sin may be, drugs, alcohol, overeating, lust, judging others, stealing, greed, gossip, anger, slothfulness, envy, or pride, know that there is forgiveness and repentance available to you that is inexhaustible. I say these things to you all tonight because I care for you as individuals. And I know that God wants for you to be with him or eternity in Paradise.
    One thing that I have realized throughout all my endeavors, is that my circumstances may have been different than each of yours, but the resulting feelings and the emotions are the same. I might can’t relate to the reasons why you feel the way you do, but I guarantee that each one of us has felt the same degree of suffering or trauma that the others have. I encourage tonight to talk to someone about your deepest sins, maybe not tonight but eventually. It will feel like a burden has been lifted, it perhaps will promote a more humble character, and it will make us less apt to judge our brothers and sisters in Christ. I would also encourage you to get the proper channel of help necessary to combat any problems that may require professional help.
    There have been some essentials in turning my life around and giving it over to God. I believe the single most important blessing has been repentance. This gift was given by God , and preached by John the Baptist as well as Jesus throughout their ministries. Repentance is a gift, made available to us by God, so that we may truly be freed from the one true thing that killed Jesus Christ. My sins and Your sins. My friends, this is true love for us. What a concept, our sins, and our lives have crucified Christ. The longer we live in our sin, the more He feels the nails being driven into His hands and His feet. The more he feels the thorns on his brow, and finally, when he cannot handle our darkness anymore, the spear is thrust into His side and he is out of our lives forever. My beloved friends, do not lose hope, for there is forgiveness, there is redemption, there is repentance.
    In all of my failings, successes, trials, and life, there has been one constant. Whether I chose to acknowledge Him or not is irrelevant, He never left my side. I would like everyone to turn with me to Mark 2: 15-17:
    “And it came about that He was reclining at table in his house, and many tax-gatherers and sinners were dining with Jesus and His disciples; for there were many of them, and they were following Him. And when the scribes of the Pharisees saw that He was eating with the sinners and tax-gatherers, they began saying to His disciples, ‘Why is He eating and drinking with tax-gatherers and sinners?’ And hearing this, Jesus said to them, ‘It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick; I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners.’’
    Next I would like you to turn to Luke 15: 11-24
    “And He said, ‘a certain man had two sons; and the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of the estate that falls to me.’ And he divided his wealth between them. ‘and not many days later, the younger son gathered everything together and went on a journey into a distant country, and there he squandered his estate with loose living. Now when he had spent everything, a severe famine occurred in that country, and he began to be in need. And he went and attached himself to one of the citizens of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. And he was longing to fill his stomach with the pods that the swine were eating, and no one was giving anything to him. But when he came to his senses, he said, How many of my father’s hired men have more than enough bread, but I am dying here with hunger! I will get up and go to my father, and will say to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hire men.’ And he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him, and felt compassion for him, and ran and embraced him, and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his slaves, ‘Quickly bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet; and bring the fattened calf, kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this son of mine was dead, and has come to life again; he was lost, and has been found.’ And they began to be merry.

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    January 19, 2002

    The Fight of My Life

    They wait patiently; uncomfortable silence destroys my faith
    I pray before rest, as they eagerly await my weary state of mind
    I nod off to sleep and then it begins.
    Subtle engagement initially; I toss and turn, wrestling that I may rest
    my cognitive ability is so limited by my tired intellect that I am not aware of
    my surroundings.
    They are after my life when I am awake, and they work to destroy my focus on
    God when I least expect. These attacks are terrible at best. Yet they are not
    unwarranted, for I have sin still in my heart and in my life. These demons hide
    In the darkest corners of my life, my heart, my soul. I beseech Thee oh God: bring
    forth Your light and expose my darkest deeds that I may be humble at all times,
    only so that I might exude Your ineffable glory. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of
    God, have mercy on me a sinner.

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    Dear God,

    I am not content with resting, for I know they seek my very life. Where are the Warriors? Where is my defense? I am crying in my dream. My teeth are clinched with resilient force. I struggle to fight, but it is out of my hands. I am stirring severely while sweat collects on my pillow. I am being tortured with grief and despair. Picture it like a man that has witnessed the death of his only brother. I consider surrender. God intervenes forbidding me to yield I contemplate the subconscious events I am experiencing. Am I not in a better place in my life? Clearly I am not where I need to be for this is real. This battle is alive, and my soul is at stake. I must be armed next time. I need to be able to call upon the name of the Lord even in my sleep. Yet, I lack that type of loyalty; the devoted love that manifests itself so deeply it cannot be shaken. So profound that it cannot be moved. How can my sleep cause such emotion? How can the enemy stake a claim for my life at my weakest point? He is undeniably a poor sport. I must be on guard at all times. Work to stay vigil; for this is the fight of my life.
    The devil has no power over me when I am constantly struggling to find the love of God with a passion that cannot be denied. I feel myself falling in my dream. God catches me and I wake. Almost in tears, I find my knees on the floor and pray to the Lord to comfort me. I am intensely fearful of the occurrences I just recognized. I pray for peace to sleep, and for protection from the enemy for the rest of the night watches. I climb back into my bed and slowly drift to sleep calling on the name of Jesus with every breath. The battle starts
    again. With God’s help I engage. With my guardian angel at my side, I sense the comfort of rest again, illustrating the very defense God has for me, and we win. Rest is necessary for us to endure in the struggle. When the enemy assaults this part of my life, it is imperative that I am aware that the stakes have been raised.
    However, I am not alarmed, for God is never exhausted. With His help He has given me the vigor to dig in with all my strength, all my spirit, all my soul, all my heart. I refuse to be beat. I refuse to lose. I refuse to allow the
    enemy to have dominion over me. I entreat You oh Lord, to send Your angels to defend me in times when the enemy assaults me. I give my praise to You. I seek You first, for You are the One true God. The inability to sleep and nightmares I am experiencing are assaults from the wicked force that has dominated my life for too long. The vicious cycle ends today. I no longer conform to old behavior. God is number one in my life. I pray
    You oh Lord, I offer You my life anew. Take me, and use me according to Your will I can’t live without You. You are the light that exposes darkness. I am tired of trying to find a path in the dark corners of my life. Shine Your light, oh Lord, and make my way straight and direct before Your very eyes. I hunger for You. I thirst for You. I desire You in my heart. Fill me with Your love so as to make me complete in the work You have begun. I long for that. I am not worthy Lord, I know I am not worthy. But you have said before that You do not desire
    the death of a sinner but that he should repent and turn from his sin.
    I need Your truth as fuel for my life. I want to help others. I want to be able to experience love with another that exemplifies the relationship that You designed between You and Your beloved creation. Light the fire in me Lord, and let it burn bright. Consume me with your love so that I may be an example to others. Use me as a vessel, Lord so that I may praise Your very name through my daily actions. Reform me to the nature that You created for me, the nature that allows man to seek truth and love first. Oh Lord, I need to know You. Please help me for better in the fight for my life. I want to be with You eternally. I love You.

    Your Servant,
    Cyrus

    Lastly turn to Isaiah 40: 27-31
    “Why do you say, O Jacob, and assert, O Israel, ‘My way is hidden from the LORD and the justice due me escapes the notice of my God?’ Do you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD, the creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power. And vigorous young men stumble badly, yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary.”

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    FREEDOM FROM BONDAGE

    I LONG TO BE FREE FROM THE DARKNES AROUND;
    THE LIGHT OF LIGHTS IS THE ONLY HELP
    IT HAS POWER OVER ME LIKE A LION DOES A LAMB;
    I HAVE NO STRENGTH IN THE MIDST OF THE FIGHT

    I AM TEMPTED, GRIPPED, AND PASSIONATELY EVOKED;
    I REMEMBER TO PRAY, BUT DISCIPLINE I CHOOSE NOT
    MOMENTARILY A RAGE OF PASSIONS FLOURISH;
    LEAVING ME SATISFIED FOR AN INSTANT

    THE GRACE OF GOD IS ENDLESS IN MERCY;
    YET I CHOOSE TO DESSERT HIS BLESSINGS
    OH LORD HOW LONG WILL I WHITHER?
    IN THIS, THE SHAPING OF MY LIFE

    HOW DO I CEASE TO BE TEMPTED?
    MOREOVER, HOW DO I DISRUPT TEMPTATION AS IT IS?
    PRAYER IS THE ONLY ANSWER I KNOW;
    AND IF ITS RIGHT, PLEASE, I PRAY YOU, HELP ME TO PRAY

    THE DISCIPLINE OF PRAYER IS OH TOO EASY;
    AT LEAST THE WAY ITS PONDERED
    I HAVE HEARD OF MEN WHO BATTLE;
    SO SIMPLE, SO DIGNIFIED; YET I CANNOT COMPREHEND

    PLEASE TO HELP ME, AS YOU LOVE ALL;
    THE WORDS AND EMOTIONS OF PRAYER
    HOW AM I TO BE WITH YOU?
    FORGIVE ME WHAT I SAY

    I AM NOT A SCHOLAR, NOR A FOOL I PRAY;
    I JUST LONG FOR YOU TO HELP ME
    TO SHOW ME LOVE AND HOPE I CAN FEEL;
    IS IT NOT YOUR DESIRE, FOR ME TO BE HEALED?

    I KNOW I CAN CONQUER, IF I HAVE THE HELP TO PRAY;
    BUT THE WRETCH THAT MY SOUL IS, I NEED YOUR HELP EACH DAY
    MY VISION IS SO CLOUDED, AND FINALLY I PRAY;
    CLEAR MY THOUGHTS OH LORD, AND GLORY BE TO YOU

  62. I FOUND AND READ THIS WEB SITE FOR THE FIRST TIME 3 DAYS AGO. I FOUND ALL OF THE COMMENTS VERY INTERESTING AND I APPRECIATE ALL THE GOOD THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN SAID….I GUESS IN OUR SOCIETY IT IS PROPER TO HONER THE DEAD WITH POSITIVE HOUGHTS. OF COURSE, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOME WHO HAVE NEGATIVE THINGS TO SAY WHICH DOESN’T BOTHER ME.
    CY DID SOME BAD THINGS IN HIS LIFE TOO. SO HAVE ALL OF YOU, AS HAVE I. IS FAILURE OR SUCESS IN A LIFE LIVED, SOMETHING WE ALL VOTE ON? SO LET’S ALL VOTE ON IT…..ON THIS BLOG I THINK CY WOULD WIN. BUT, I’M SO SORRY TO DISSAPPOINT YOU ALL, WE DON’T GET TO VOTE.
    I THINK EACH OF US SHOULD GET OUT A SPREAD SHEET AND MAKE 2 COLUMNS: COLUMN 1 WILL BE OUR ASSETS… EVERY THING WE HAVE DONE GOOD OR RIGHT IN OUR LIFE AND COLUMN 2 WILL BE ALL OF OUR LIABILITIES, FAILURES AND EVERYTHING WE HAVE DONE WRONG. THEN IF COLUMN 2 IS LONGER THAN COLUMN 1 YOU CAN CONSIDER YOURSELF A HELL BOUND ASSHOLE. IF IT IS THE OTHER WAY AROUND YOU ARE A SUCCESS BOUND FOR GLORY.
    ALL I AM TRYING TO SAY IS THAT IF GOD IS KEEPING SCORE, WE ARE ALL GOING TO HELL. MAN TENDS TO LOOK ON THE OUTSIDE…..THE SPREAD SHEET… BUT GOD KNOWS THE HEART. I AM SURE GLAD IT WILL BE GOD WHO JUDGES CY’S HEART. WHY? BECAUSE HIS LOVE AND GRACE AND MERCY IS IN ESHAUSTABLE AND CAN MAKE YOU RIGHTEOUS IN HIS SIGHT. SOME MAY THINK THAT ISN’T FAIR CAUSE THE THIEF ON THE CROSS ACCEPTED THE MERCY OF GOD JUST BEFORE HE DIED AND ENDED UP IN PARADISE. WELL, ONLY GOD GETS TO VOTE.
    SO…..WHY NOT LET CY SPEAK FOR HIMSELF.
    NOT SO YOU CAN KEEP SCORE BUT THAT YOU MIGHT GET A SMALL GLIMPSE OF HIS HEART, AND PART OF THE INNER STRUGGLE HE HAD. WHAT PUT ME TO SHAME WAS HIS WILLINGNESS AND DETERMINATION TO FIGHT FOR KEEPING HIS HEART SOFT TOWARDS GOD.
    THE FOLLOWING IS A SPEECH HE GAVE AT BELLHAVEN COLLEGE IN JACKSON MISSISSIPPI IN 2002 TO A FELLOWSHIP OF CHRISTIAN ATHLETES MEETING. STILL EVERY DAY I COMMIT CYRUS TO THE MERCY AND GRACE OF GOD. IT IS THE ONLY PLACE IN THE INTIRE UNIVERSE WHERE THERE IS JUSTICE AND EQUITY.

    Acknowledgments:

    I would like to thank the FCA leadership team for giving me the opportunity to share a part of my life in hopes that it may reconcile someone to Christ. I am here tonight out of love for God and out of love for you my beloved fellow schoolmates.
    I would also like to extend thanks for those of you who prayed for me to help me find the courage, strength, and words necessary to impact at least one life in here tonight. Glory be to God for that.

    In the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit; one God.

    Prayer:

    Oh Christ our God, who at all times and in every hour, in heaven and on earth art worshipped and glorified: who art longsuffering, merciful and compassionate; who loves the just and shows mercy upon the sinner; who calls all to salvation through the promise of good things to come; O Lord, in this receive our supplications, and direct our lives according to your commandments. Sanctify our souls, purify our bodies, correct our thoughts, cleanse our minds; deliver us from all trials, evil and distress. Surround us with your holy angels so that guided and guarded by them we may attain to the unity of the Christian faith and to the knowledge of your unapproachable glory. For you are blessed unto ages of ages. Amen

    Introduction:

    My name is Cyrus Brunner, I was born in Isla Vista, California, right outside of Santa Barbara. I am 29 years old, a junior here at Belhaven College, and I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. What I hope to do tonight is to share part of my life with you in hopes to help you to struggle through adversity in your lives. I will tell you where I have been, what happened, and what its like now. I am hoping to convey the idea of true repentance, forgiveness, and ultimately God’s love for us. I was born the 3rd of 7 children. I grew up in the most densely populated square mile west of the Mississippi River and it was filled with college students. About 20,000 of them.
    I attended elementary school with kids from 28 foreign countries including, Russia, Japan, Korea, Argentina, Laos, Vietnam, Cambodia,
    Canada, Ireland, Mexico, Brazil, the Philippines, Sweden, and Ghana, just to name a few. I was outgoing and enjoyed my childhood. I was athletic, energetic, and a good student. I attended St. Athanasius Orthodox Christian Church every week.

    Junior High was a little different than elementary school. Weird things started happening to my body. I got suspended once for fighting. I did track and field for the school while I enjoyed competing on independent club and youth teams for football, basketball and baseball. Basketball, football and baseball went well, as I excelled and worked hard in each. I worked at a little market at the age of 13 and I got drunk for the first time at the Christmas work party. I smoked pot for the first time also at the age of 13, right before the fall production for theatre in which I had a fairly big part. It was a comedy thank heaven.

    High School welcome me, and I it. Throughout my 4 yars there I earned 8 varsity letters in 4 sports: wrestling, baseball, football and soccer. I had everything going for me. I broke our school’s single season rushing record for football my senior year, as well as the school’s single season and career homerun records for baseball. During those 4 years, I dabbled with marijuana and alcohol a little more frequently and tried ecstasy for the first time at 15. Pot use became more frequent and started going to class high. I would drink on weekends and got into a lot of fights with college students. I still excelled at athletics earning all southern California honors in football, baseball, and wrestling. I dealt with periodical anorexia during wrestling season and always had a girlfriend whom I was never faithful to. I received a lot of positive press from the newspaper. I was like a little celebrity in my county. This was not enough for me. I tried cocaine for the first time at 17. I tried acid during my senior year at age 18, as well as mushrooms. Right after I graduated I tried cocaine again, which shortly thereafter, would aid in robbing me of the next 8-9 years of my life. I graduated with a 3.51 GPA, and chose to attend Westmont College in Montecito, California about 30 minutes from home. I lost my scholarship after 1 semester due to a 1.2 GPA and I knew I was a full blown drug addict.
    The next few years were sort of a blur, so I am going to summarize my terror for you as best I can. Not in any particular order, these things happened in my life: At the age of 19, I tried crystal methane and abused that for a good while. One I had was at the end of a 3-day high on speed; I ate some magic mushrooms and started to severely hallucinate. Before long, I felt my heart pounding with intense pressure and at an extremely high rate. I thought for sure that this was the end. I refused to call 911 because I knew that I would be arrested. The last thing I remember was falling down on a couch. I didn’t get off that couch for two days. To this day I believe I had a mild heart attack. This experience did not change my outlook however as I bought more speed as soon as I had the power to walk. At the age of 21 I went to jail for a non-drug charge for 32 days. During this period of my life I consumed via a cylinder shaped object with holes a both ends, close to a gram of cocaine per day, 60.00 value. A 12 pack of beer or equivalent and 2 grams of marijuana, on average. Not to mention I used each of the drugs previously mentioned when my drug of choice, cocaine, was not available. This continued for the next 5-6 years.

    I was constantly involved in bar room fights, and most all other things associated with drug and alcohol addiction. Finally, one day, I hit what they call my low. I weighing about 158 pounds, I was using cocaine in preference to eating, drinking, sleeping and any sort of relationship possible. I started to see and hear things that were not there. Through my drug abuse I had induced a state of paranoid schizophrenia. I truly believed that I saw men in fatigues on rooftops across the street waiting to shoot me on sight. I heard the police calling for me to come out of my apartment to be arrested. I sat in a closet for 7-8 hours sweating profusely until finally reason brought me to make a phone call to my mother. I had stolen from my loved ones. I had manipulated for money and anything else I felt I had to have. I had a gun stuck to my head for 20.00 at one point for a drug deal gone bad. I tried to move away to other states, but a strange thing kept happening…No matter where I went, I would run into myself before too long.
    Throughout this period of my life, I am sure that God never left my side. My guardian angel must be a stud because I put him through the mud. I have walked away from 3 high speed car accidents without a mark, just a little back pain. God was constantly knocking on the door to my heart as he does all of us. My heart was cluttered, my house was dirty, and I was so stricken with fear and pride that I refused to let him in. He picked me up off my face so many times and I still refused to accept his love. I didn’t realize that it was Him who wanted me so desperately to amend my way of life. I knew what I was doing was wrong, and I still did it. There were some external circumstances that I blamed, some with validity, but ultimately, I lit the pipe, I tipped the beer, I snorted the coke. Finally, with the help of God, I had to take responsibility for my actions and ask someone for help. What a blow to my pride that was. Do you ever feel like no one will understand your pain? Do you ever think that someone may judge you for that deep dark sin that lingers in your heart? Have you ever ever confessed a sin to God and yet still don’t feel quite right? I moved to Mississippi in the summer of 1998 and checked into a long-term drug and alcohol treatment center where I received a foundation to help me battle for a better life. God may never allow my mind to stop obsessing about drugs and alcohol but maybe he will. True heartfelt repentance, His unceasing forgiveness, and ultimately his love can change all that, if I let it.
    I stayed there for 123 days. I left against medial advice. I went clean for a year and then started drinking and drugging again. I squandered 11,500 dollars in two months. I began to smoke crack cocaine. This was another low point…Y’all it is only because of the grace of God I stand before you here tonight. I was using alcohol and marijuana occasionally last semester, and now I am clean and sober.
    My experience was like a little epiphany, I give the glory to God, because whether you know it or not, he worked with several of you in this room to help me recognize, on different occasions, what love is for the first time since I was fifteen years old. And now, I am not only receiving love from others, he poured out his grace and mercy on me and has allowed me to genuinely give love…In the last month I have experienced true joy for the first time in my life. This is real, and I am so grateful that I do not have the words to describe.
    Today, my life is very different than it was. Do I still make mistakes? Yes, everyday of my life. Do I still struggle with wanting to use alcohol and drugs? Yes, almost everyday of my life. Do I sin in other ways? Yes, every day of my life. For those of you who have had similar experiences I encourage you to ask for help. For those of you who struggle in other areas of your life, I also encourage you to talk to someone and ask for help. Regardless of what your sin may be, drugs, alcohol, overeating, lust, judging others, stealing, greed, gossip, anger, slothfulness, envy, or pride, know that there is forgiveness and repentance available to you that is inexhaustible. I say these things to you all tonight because I care for you as individuals. And I know that God wants for you to be with him or eternity in Paradise.
    One thing that I have realized throughout all my endeavors, is that my circumstances may have been different than each of yours, but the resulting feelings and the emotions are the same. I might can’t relate to the reasons why you feel the way you do, but I guarantee that each one of us has felt the same degree of suffering or trauma that the others have. I encourage tonight to talk to someone about your deepest sins, maybe not tonight but eventually. It will feel like a burden has been lifted, it perhaps will promote a more humble character, and it will make us less apt to judge our brothers and sisters in Christ. I would also encourage you to get the proper channel of help necessary to combat any problems that may require professional help.
    There have been some essentials in turning my life around and giving it over to God. I believe the single most important blessing has been repentance. This gift was given by God , and preached by John the Baptist as well as Jesus throughout their ministries. Repentance is a gift, made available to us by God, so that we may truly be freed from the one true thing that killed Jesus Christ. My sins and Your sins. My friends, this is true love for us. What a concept, our sins, and our lives have crucified Christ. The longer we live in our sin, the more He feels the nails being driven into His hands and His feet. The more he feels the thorns on his brow, and finally, when he cannot handle our darkness anymore, the spear is thrust into His side and he is out of our lives forever. My beloved friends, do not lose hope, for there is forgiveness, there is redemption, there is repentance.
    In all of my failings, successes, trials, and life, there has been one constant. Whether I chose to acknowledge Him or not is irrelevant, He never left my side. I would like everyone to turn with me to Mark 2: 15-17:
    “And it came about that He was reclining at table in his house, and many tax-gatherers and sinners were dining with Jesus and His disciples; for there were many of them, and they were following Him. And when the scribes of the Pharisees saw that He was eating with the sinners and tax-gatherers, they began saying to His disciples, ‘Why is He eating and drinking with tax-gatherers and sinners?’ And hearing this, Jesus said to them, ‘It is not those who are healthy who need a physician, but those who are sick; I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners.’’
    Next I would like you to turn to Luke 15: 11-24
    “And He said, ‘a certain man had two sons; and the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of the estate that falls to me.’ And he divided his wealth between them. ‘and not many days later, the younger son gathered everything together and went on a journey into a distant country, and there he squandered his estate with loose living. Now when he had spent everything, a severe famine occurred in that country, and he began to be in need. And he went and attached himself to one of the citizens of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine. And he was longing to fill his stomach with the pods that the swine were eating, and no one was giving anything to him. But when he came to his senses, he said, How many of my father’s hired men have more than enough bread, but I am dying here with hunger! I will get up and go to my father, and will say to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me as one of your hire men.’ And he got up and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him, and felt compassion for him, and ran and embraced him, and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight; I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his slaves, ‘Quickly bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet; and bring the fattened calf, kill it, and let us eat and be merry; for this son of mine was dead, and has come to life again; he was lost, and has been found.’ And they began to be merry.

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    January 19, 2002

    The Fight of My Life

    They wait patiently; uncomfortable silence destroys my faith
    I pray before rest, as they eagerly await my weary state of mind
    I nod off to sleep and then it begins.
    Subtle engagement initially; I toss and turn, wrestling that I may rest
    my cognitive ability is so limited by my tired intellect that I am not aware of
    my surroundings.
    They are after my life when I am awake, and they work to destroy my focus on
    God when I least expect. These attacks are terrible at best. Yet they are not
    unwarranted, for I have sin still in my heart and in my life. These demons hide
    In the darkest corners of my life, my heart, my soul. I beseech Thee oh God: bring
    forth Your light and expose my darkest deeds that I may be humble at all times,
    only so that I might exude Your ineffable glory. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of
    God, have mercy on me a sinner.

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    Dear God,

    I am not content with resting, for I know they seek my very life. Where are the Warriors? Where is my defense? I am crying in my dream. My teeth are clinched with resilient force. I struggle to fight, but it is out of my hands. I am stirring severely while sweat collects on my pillow. I am being tortured with grief and despair. Picture it like a man that has witnessed the death of his only brother. I consider surrender. God intervenes forbidding me to yield I contemplate the subconscious events I am experiencing. Am I not in a better place in my life? Clearly I am not where I need to be for this is real. This battle is alive, and my soul is at stake. I must be armed next time. I need to be able to call upon the name of the Lord even in my sleep. Yet, I lack that type of loyalty; the devoted love that manifests itself so deeply it cannot be shaken. So profound that it cannot be moved. How can my sleep cause such emotion? How can the enemy stake a claim for my life at my weakest point? He is undeniably a poor sport. I must be on guard at all times. Work to stay vigil; for this is the fight of my life.
    The devil has no power over me when I am constantly struggling to find the love of God with a passion that cannot be denied. I feel myself falling in my dream. God catches me and I wake. Almost in tears, I find my knees on the floor and pray to the Lord to comfort me. I am intensely fearful of the occurrences I just recognized. I pray for peace to sleep, and for protection from the enemy for the rest of the night watches. I climb back into my bed and slowly drift to sleep calling on the name of Jesus with every breath. The battle starts
    again. With God’s help I engage. With my guardian angel at my side, I sense the comfort of rest again, illustrating the very defense God has for me, and we win. Rest is necessary for us to endure in the struggle. When the enemy assaults this part of my life, it is imperative that I am aware that the stakes have been raised.
    However, I am not alarmed, for God is never exhausted. With His help He has given me the vigor to dig in with all my strength, all my spirit, all my soul, all my heart. I refuse to be beat. I refuse to lose. I refuse to allow the
    enemy to have dominion over me. I entreat You oh Lord, to send Your angels to defend me in times when the enemy assaults me. I give my praise to You. I seek You first, for You are the One true God. The inability to sleep and nightmares I am experiencing are assaults from the wicked force that has dominated my life for too long. The vicious cycle ends today. I no longer conform to old behavior. God is number one in my life. I pray
    You oh Lord, I offer You my life anew. Take me, and use me according to Your will I can’t live without You. You are the light that exposes darkness. I am tired of trying to find a path in the dark corners of my life. Shine Your light, oh Lord, and make my way straight and direct before Your very eyes. I hunger for You. I thirst for You. I desire You in my heart. Fill me with Your love so as to make me complete in the work You have begun. I long for that. I am not worthy Lord, I know I am not worthy. But you have said before that You do not desire
    the death of a sinner but that he should repent and turn from his sin.
    I need Your truth as fuel for my life. I want to help others. I want to be able to experience love with another that exemplifies the relationship that You designed between You and Your beloved creation. Light the fire in me Lord, and let it burn bright. Consume me with your love so that I may be an example to others. Use me as a vessel, Lord so that I may praise Your very name through my daily actions. Reform me to the nature that You created for me, the nature that allows man to seek truth and love first. Oh Lord, I need to know You. Please help me for better in the fight for my life. I want to be with You eternally. I love You.

    Your Servant,
    Cyrus

    Lastly turn to Isaiah 40: 27-31
    “Why do you say, O Jacob, and assert, O Israel, ‘My way is hidden from the LORD and the justice due me escapes the notice of my God?’ Do you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD, the creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power. And vigorous young men stumble badly, yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary.”

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    FREEDOM FROM BONDAGE

    I LONG TO BE FREE FROM THE DARKNES AROUND;
    THE LIGHT OF LIGHTS IS THE ONLY HELP
    IT HAS POWER OVER ME LIKE A LION DOES A LAMB;
    I HAVE NO STRENGTH IN THE MIDST OF THE FIGHT

    I AM TEMPTED, GRIPPED, AND PASSIONATELY EVOKED;
    I REMEMBER TO PRAY, BUT DISCIPLINE I CHOOSE NOT
    MOMENTARILY A RAGE OF PASSIONS FLOURISH;
    LEAVING ME SATISFIED FOR AN INSTANT

    THE GRACE OF GOD IS ENDLESS IN MERCY;
    YET I CHOOSE TO DESSERT HIS BLESSINGS
    OH LORD HOW LONG WILL I WHITHER?
    IN THIS, THE SHAPING OF MY LIFE

    HOW DO I CEASE TO BE TEMPTED?
    MOREOVER, HOW DO I DISRUPT TEMPTATION AS IT IS?
    PRAYER IS THE ONLY ANSWER I KNOW;
    AND IF ITS RIGHT, PLEASE, I PRAY YOU, HELP ME TO PRAY

    THE DISCIPLINE OF PRAYER IS OH TOO EASY;
    AT LEAST THE WAY ITS PONDERED
    I HAVE HEARD OF MEN WHO BATTLE;
    SO SIMPLE, SO DIGNIFIED; YET I CANNOT COMPREHEND

    PLEASE TO HELP ME, AS YOU LOVE ALL;
    THE WORDS AND EMOTIONS OF PRAYER
    HOW AM I TO BE WITH YOU?
    FORGIVE ME WHAT I SAY

    I AM NOT A SCHOLAR, NOR A FOOL I PRAY;
    I JUST LONG FOR YOU TO HELP ME
    TO SHOW ME LOVE AND HOPE I CAN FEEL;
    IS IT NOT YOUR DESIRE, FOR ME TO BE HEALED?

    I KNOW I CAN CONQUER, IF I HAVE THE HELP TO PRAY;
    BUT THE WRETCH THAT MY SOUL IS, I NEED YOUR HELP EACH DAY
    MY VISION IS SO CLOUDED, AND FINALLY I PRAY;
    CLEAR MY THOUGHTS OH LORD, AND GLORY BE TO YOU

  63. Someone who Knew HIM

    To “The Family”: Strike 1. Want to try again? Oh & use spell check…it will make you look a lot smarter!

  64. Someone who Knew HIM

    To “The Family”: Strike 1. Want to try again? Oh & use spell check…it will make you look a lot smarter!

  65. "The Family" knows him!!!!

    To: Someone who Knew HIM
    Please take your pathetic, self absorbed comments, your “know” it all comments and your BUN elsewhere. We were tired of you then and we’re tired of you now. If you think “he got his” then be done with it. You can’t “forge” the document we got. It’s called a death certificate. Stay away! Let him rest in peace.

  66. "The Family" knows him!!!!

    To: Someone who Knew HIM
    Please take your pathetic, self absorbed comments, your “know” it all comments and your BUN elsewhere. We were tired of you then and we’re tired of you now. If you think “he got his” then be done with it. You can’t “forge” the document we got. It’s called a death certificate. Stay away! Let him rest in peace.

  67. in repsonse to reply #33………get a life. you must be really bored. Who gives a shit if a few words were misspelled. You’re an ass.

  68. in repsonse to reply #33………get a life. you must be really bored. Who gives a shit if a few words were misspelled. You’re an ass.

  69. I had heard over the years that Cy had gotten himself into some trouble with alcohol and drugs, but after reading his dads posting,I had NO idea how bad it really was. I truly truly hope that Cy has found peace in heaven. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I feel so sad to learn of all the struggles that he went through in his short time here on earth. I hope that the Brunner family will find peace as well.

  70. I had heard over the years that Cy had gotten himself into some trouble with alcohol and drugs, but after reading his dads posting,I had NO idea how bad it really was. I truly truly hope that Cy has found peace in heaven. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I feel so sad to learn of all the struggles that he went through in his short time here on earth. I hope that the Brunner family will find peace as well.

  71. I have know Cyrus’ mother since we were in high school together. We just recently reconnected after more than 40 years. I never knew Cyrus, and now thanks to a criminal who’s name is not worth mentioning, I never will. But is seems a few have forgotten and need to be remined, “Cyrus is the victim and not the one on trial.”

  72. I have know Cyrus’ mother since we were in high school together. We just recently reconnected after more than 40 years. I never knew Cyrus, and now thanks to a criminal who’s name is not worth mentioning, I never will. But is seems a few have forgotten and need to be remined, “Cyrus is the victim and not the one on trial.”

  73. Actually there is one misspelled word. But who’s counting. We won’t point out the number of grammatical errors that HIM had in that pathetic posting.
    You guys are getting off track here though….this is about parents behaving badly. Why is no one talking about the fact that Ms. Clayton could only get 5 years for taking the actions that she took?!?!? What mother helps her son hide the murders he just committed? And you wonder why there are people like Daniel Clayton out there. Um, could it be because of a mother like that as an example….?

  74. Actually there is one misspelled word. But who’s counting. We won’t point out the number of grammatical errors that HIM had in that pathetic posting.
    You guys are getting off track here though….this is about parents behaving badly. Why is no one talking about the fact that Ms. Clayton could only get 5 years for taking the actions that she took?!?!? What mother helps her son hide the murders he just committed? And you wonder why there are people like Daniel Clayton out there. Um, could it be because of a mother like that as an example….?

  75. What is the old saying, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree? Well, in this murder case that is obviously true. As Cy’s cousin I sit here and try to understand why people do disgusting violent acts to other people, but the truth is that I probably will never understand why because the fact is that we live in a fallen world. I can feel other peoples’ hurt based on what is being written here in this blog. From the number of postings on this site it is obvious that there are countless parents and people out there behaving badly and numbers of people left hurting in the wake of crime. How do parents starve their own infant children to death or beat them to the point of broken bones? If they would do that to their own flesh and blood what would they do to a stranger in a grocery store that picked up the last 6-pack of Budweiser before they could grab it for themselves? It makes me sick to be quite honest, but our society is at the point now where we are becoming numb to tragedy. Numb, that is, if it doesn’t happen to you or your loved ones.

    You can watch the news any night of the week and fade off as the reporters continue on story after story of war, death, hate, child abuse, etc. You can read it on countless web sites if the news doesn’t give you enough. If any of you have had to watch that same news with the understanding that the person the reporters are talking about is your loved one then you know exactly how bad the hurt can be and how much anger is generated. There is nothing that can compare to finding out that a family member or someone close to you has been victimized in such a senseless act of violence. Watching the news unfold in Cy and Nora’s deaths has been one of the most painful experiences of my life. 6 months later and I still mourn as I think about it and write.

    The part that truly surprises me is that one particular writer on this blog continues to try to vilify Cy’s character while missing the point completely. It is obviously the same writer with the same rambling, nonsensical style. She is so intent on being right and casting shadows on others that she seems to miss the point. The point is not whether Cy was a good or bad person, and trust me when I tell you he was definitely good, the point is that he and Nora were murdered. This murderer and his mother had no respect for human life. They had no concern for the fact that they were taking away two lives and they were so STUPID that they thought they would get away with it. Our entire family has been left with the task of trying to pick up the pieces that these two idiots left behind.

    This is not the appropriate venue to try to convince others about how good or bad Cy was, but then again, I do not have much confidence that the writer has an understanding of what is appropriate. If you were at the funeral you would know by the number of people in attendance that he was loved and his life touched many people who got close enough to him to see who he truly was. It wasn’t too hard to get close to him as he was always one to skip a handshake and go straight for a hug. Those of you that truly knew him understand this.

    People posting trash to this site are the type of people that like to be noticed at any cost. Why not get a job as a tabloid writer or a member of the paparazzi. At least there, if you were any good, you would get paid, and you obviously have enough time on your hands to get a job.

  76. What is the old saying, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree? Well, in this murder case that is obviously true. As Cy’s cousin I sit here and try to understand why people do disgusting violent acts to other people, but the truth is that I probably will never understand why because the fact is that we live in a fallen world. I can feel other peoples’ hurt based on what is being written here in this blog. From the number of postings on this site it is obvious that there are countless parents and people out there behaving badly and numbers of people left hurting in the wake of crime. How do parents starve their own infant children to death or beat them to the point of broken bones? If they would do that to their own flesh and blood what would they do to a stranger in a grocery store that picked up the last 6-pack of Budweiser before they could grab it for themselves? It makes me sick to be quite honest, but our society is at the point now where we are becoming numb to tragedy. Numb, that is, if it doesn’t happen to you or your loved ones.

    You can watch the news any night of the week and fade off as the reporters continue on story after story of war, death, hate, child abuse, etc. You can read it on countless web sites if the news doesn’t give you enough. If any of you have had to watch that same news with the understanding that the person the reporters are talking about is your loved one then you know exactly how bad the hurt can be and how much anger is generated. There is nothing that can compare to finding out that a family member or someone close to you has been victimized in such a senseless act of violence. Watching the news unfold in Cy and Nora’s deaths has been one of the most painful experiences of my life. 6 months later and I still mourn as I think about it and write.

    The part that truly surprises me is that one particular writer on this blog continues to try to vilify Cy’s character while missing the point completely. It is obviously the same writer with the same rambling, nonsensical style. She is so intent on being right and casting shadows on others that she seems to miss the point. The point is not whether Cy was a good or bad person, and trust me when I tell you he was definitely good, the point is that he and Nora were murdered. This murderer and his mother had no respect for human life. They had no concern for the fact that they were taking away two lives and they were so STUPID that they thought they would get away with it. Our entire family has been left with the task of trying to pick up the pieces that these two idiots left behind.

    This is not the appropriate venue to try to convince others about how good or bad Cy was, but then again, I do not have much confidence that the writer has an understanding of what is appropriate. If you were at the funeral you would know by the number of people in attendance that he was loved and his life touched many people who got close enough to him to see who he truly was. It wasn’t too hard to get close to him as he was always one to skip a handshake and go straight for a hug. Those of you that truly knew him understand this.

    People posting trash to this site are the type of people that like to be noticed at any cost. Why not get a job as a tabloid writer or a member of the paparazzi. At least there, if you were any good, you would get paid, and you obviously have enough time on your hands to get a job.

  77. Well put Andy!

  78. Well put Andy!

  79. To Cy and his family….I was shocked today to see all the comments and back and forth talk on the subject of Cy’s drug use, his family and their faith. It’s pathetic to say the least that someone would go that far to hurt those who are mourning the loss of a son. I dated Cy and yes I knew of all the trouble before I did. I was happy with him when he was sober which was not for long periods of time but when he was sober he would talk about his struggles with life. He needed help and got it from everyone but like all addicts it’s a struggle. People who are not addicted or have issues like this don’t understand the hardship it is for the addict and their family.

    I remember the nights he would think someone was coming after him, I know about his fears but … in 1999 when he contacted me on classmates to say hello and see how I was I could tell he was doing better and accepting help.

    Shooting someone is a sinister act of violence and Mr. Clayton’s actions took lives. Children have lost a mother, a grandmother and a family mourns this loss forever. There is no reason that shots should have been fired no matter what the case. Justice will be served in the form of jail time for those involved but nothing will ever bring back Cy or Nora to their parents. Parents like the Brunner’s who tried to help Cy. I know they did. I was there. Dean is a good father and Penny and amazing mother who have weathered through more than most couples and more than I could in my lifetime. I admire them and their ability to always overcome and have the patience and faith of JOB. My deepest sympathies to all mourning the loss of their loved ones.

    Becky

  80. To Cy and his family….I was shocked today to see all the comments and back and forth talk on the subject of Cy’s drug use, his family and their faith. It’s pathetic to say the least that someone would go that far to hurt those who are mourning the loss of a son. I dated Cy and yes I knew of all the trouble before I did. I was happy with him when he was sober which was not for long periods of time but when he was sober he would talk about his struggles with life. He needed help and got it from everyone but like all addicts it’s a struggle. People who are not addicted or have issues like this don’t understand the hardship it is for the addict and their family.

    I remember the nights he would think someone was coming after him, I know about his fears but … in 1999 when he contacted me on classmates to say hello and see how I was I could tell he was doing better and accepting help.

    Shooting someone is a sinister act of violence and Mr. Clayton’s actions took lives. Children have lost a mother, a grandmother and a family mourns this loss forever. There is no reason that shots should have been fired no matter what the case. Justice will be served in the form of jail time for those involved but nothing will ever bring back Cy or Nora to their parents. Parents like the Brunner’s who tried to help Cy. I know they did. I was there. Dean is a good father and Penny and amazing mother who have weathered through more than most couples and more than I could in my lifetime. I admire them and their ability to always overcome and have the patience and faith of JOB. My deepest sympathies to all mourning the loss of their loved ones.

    Becky

  81. Penny Brunner, Cy's Mom

    Tomorrow, August 3, 2007 will mark nine months since our family lost Cyrus. To those of you who have written here on these pages to support Cy, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words. There has not been an hour pass since that fateful day, last November, that my heart has not hurt deeply from his loss. It has been an incredibly sad time for all of us. The hole that has been left where his wonderful spirit was, can never be filled. Cyrus was a most amazing person: filled with so much exuberance and brilliance, yet tormented with so much trouble in his later years. His pain was not fully known to many until after his death and yet our family lived through a great deal of his horror. I am brought to tears on an almost daily basis because I miss him so much. He was a “one of a kind” type of guy and despite all of his shortcomings, I can say with my whole heart that I was so very blessed to have been his mother. I pray for his soul and know that those of you who knew him will remember him in his better times. There is a part of me that will never be the same. because I know there will never be another day to see him or hear him walk into our home and greet me with a “Hi Momma” or just be able to wrap my arms around him and give him a big hug and get one a bigger one back. If you knew Cy, you know what I mean. God bless each and every one of you for caring about us. Thank you.

  82. Penny Brunner, Cy's Mom

    Tomorrow, August 3, 2007 will mark nine months since our family lost Cyrus. To those of you who have written here on these pages to support Cy, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words. There has not been an hour pass since that fateful day, last November, that my heart has not hurt deeply from his loss. It has been an incredibly sad time for all of us. The hole that has been left where his wonderful spirit was, can never be filled. Cyrus was a most amazing person: filled with so much exuberance and brilliance, yet tormented with so much trouble in his later years. His pain was not fully known to many until after his death and yet our family lived through a great deal of his horror. I am brought to tears on an almost daily basis because I miss him so much. He was a “one of a kind” type of guy and despite all of his shortcomings, I can say with my whole heart that I was so very blessed to have been his mother. I pray for his soul and know that those of you who knew him will remember him in his better times. There is a part of me that will never be the same. because I know there will never be another day to see him or hear him walk into our home and greet me with a “Hi Momma” or just be able to wrap my arms around him and give him a big hug and get one a bigger one back. If you knew Cy, you know what I mean. God bless each and every one of you for caring about us. Thank you.

  83. “one of a kind” indeed. I can think of no better words to describe Cy — such a strong and unique character, that fifteen years since I last saw him, it still feels like it was just a few months ago. I’m sure any of his other old friends would feel the same way. Nine months later, I still can’t believe he is no longer with us. After becoming accustomed to his omnipresence during our younger years, I can’t imagine Cy, of all people, ever leaving us under ANY circumstances. In one way or another, he was always there. I guess I figured that he would always be there to go back and visit. This continues to be truly surreal. JP

  84. “one of a kind” indeed. I can think of no better words to describe Cy — such a strong and unique character, that fifteen years since I last saw him, it still feels like it was just a few months ago. I’m sure any of his other old friends would feel the same way. Nine months later, I still can’t believe he is no longer with us. After becoming accustomed to his omnipresence during our younger years, I can’t imagine Cy, of all people, ever leaving us under ANY circumstances. In one way or another, he was always there. I guess I figured that he would always be there to go back and visit. This continues to be truly surreal. JP

  85. Penny,

    I am a mom now myself of a two year old little boy and losing a child is not I think the proper way for life to work out. We all always hope to have us parents grow old, watch our kids and their kids grow old with us and it be as god intends it to happen. But your loss I feel for. I look at my two year old and wonder what his life will bring, what he will be as a grows up, what sports he play and if he’ll become a local celeb, a natural at everything like my husband, or if he’ll face issues that are beyond my control. You have 7 wonderful children that I grew up with and adore and Cy was my favorite. Beyond any of his issues he helped me tremendously grow as a person. He showed me freedom and how to just be me and have a good time but be focused on school and work. REALLY. He always pushed me to do more. I dated him during some of I think by reading above his worst years of addiction and I myself do not and have not done drugs. But I watched out for him and prayed for him and sometimes pleaded to him to just take the help his dad and you were offering. Dean was always so good to him. And I can tell you he LOVED you and talked about you and Beau and JJ all the time. He always wanted everything for everyone but himself. When I left Santa Barbara I said goodbye to Cy and was deeply sad because I knew I wouldn’t be seeing him anymore for a while but I didn’t realize that it would be the last time I would ever see him or hug him goodbye. Thankfully I was able to talk to him over email a few times in 1999 to 2001 and I knew he was clean and happy. I felt good about his progress he had made and was happy to know he was in sports at Bel Haven. That was always his best place on the field. He was complete there. I think without a strong family like yours he wouldn’t have been able to continue to strive to do better and try to be clean. He had demons but geez so does everyone. No one is perfect. God teaches that right? We all have faults. Cy’s was wanting to be able to love himself as much as everyone loved him and put him on a pedistal and not being able to really get in touch with that feeling without something chemical was his only demon. He finally reached that goal I think recently. When I got the news about Cy I was devastated but I tought of you and Dean and the family and how this would affect a mother, a sister, a brother and a father. This is your baby. One of 7 adorable sweet and family oriented children who are the strongest kids I know. I am happy to have my son and hope that he’ll grow up as strong and happy in my household as your children did in yours and if I have more I hope we can be as closely connnected as you all are. If I am half the parent you both were to Cy I will be proud of myself. I miss Cy and think of him often. I hear his raspy voice and remember so many great times. I thank you for allowing so many of us to come to his funeral and pay our respects and grieve. It wasn’t how I ever wanted to see my friend again but I know he is with me always. My guardian angel probably keeping me safe and still pushing me to be more.

    You all hang in there. I will never forget Cy and some of the best conversations, days and moments in my young adult life. It wasn’t a party all the time with Cy he was just himself with me and I enjoyed every moment we shared.

    Becky

  86. Penny,

    I am a mom now myself of a two year old little boy and losing a child is not I think the proper way for life to work out. We all always hope to have us parents grow old, watch our kids and their kids grow old with us and it be as god intends it to happen. But your loss I feel for. I look at my two year old and wonder what his life will bring, what he will be as a grows up, what sports he play and if he’ll become a local celeb, a natural at everything like my husband, or if he’ll face issues that are beyond my control. You have 7 wonderful children that I grew up with and adore and Cy was my favorite. Beyond any of his issues he helped me tremendously grow as a person. He showed me freedom and how to just be me and have a good time but be focused on school and work. REALLY. He always pushed me to do more. I dated him during some of I think by reading above his worst years of addiction and I myself do not and have not done drugs. But I watched out for him and prayed for him and sometimes pleaded to him to just take the help his dad and you were offering. Dean was always so good to him. And I can tell you he LOVED you and talked about you and Beau and JJ all the time. He always wanted everything for everyone but himself. When I left Santa Barbara I said goodbye to Cy and was deeply sad because I knew I wouldn’t be seeing him anymore for a while but I didn’t realize that it would be the last time I would ever see him or hug him goodbye. Thankfully I was able to talk to him over email a few times in 1999 to 2001 and I knew he was clean and happy. I felt good about his progress he had made and was happy to know he was in sports at Bel Haven. That was always his best place on the field. He was complete there. I think without a strong family like yours he wouldn’t have been able to continue to strive to do better and try to be clean. He had demons but geez so does everyone. No one is perfect. God teaches that right? We all have faults. Cy’s was wanting to be able to love himself as much as everyone loved him and put him on a pedistal and not being able to really get in touch with that feeling without something chemical was his only demon. He finally reached that goal I think recently. When I got the news about Cy I was devastated but I tought of you and Dean and the family and how this would affect a mother, a sister, a brother and a father. This is your baby. One of 7 adorable sweet and family oriented children who are the strongest kids I know. I am happy to have my son and hope that he’ll grow up as strong and happy in my household as your children did in yours and if I have more I hope we can be as closely connnected as you all are. If I am half the parent you both were to Cy I will be proud of myself. I miss Cy and think of him often. I hear his raspy voice and remember so many great times. I thank you for allowing so many of us to come to his funeral and pay our respects and grieve. It wasn’t how I ever wanted to see my friend again but I know he is with me always. My guardian angel probably keeping me safe and still pushing me to be more.

    You all hang in there. I will never forget Cy and some of the best conversations, days and moments in my young adult life. It wasn’t a party all the time with Cy he was just himself with me and I enjoyed every moment we shared.

    Becky

  87. I knew Cy when I was a little girl, and I was in love with him. I just wanted to check up on the case and came across these post.. all I have to say is that a few of you… no names mentioned… are seriously retarted! Does it matter if he had a bad past, people change. He was a great person and friend… Memory Eternal.

  88. I knew Cy when I was a little girl, and I was in love with him. I just wanted to check up on the case and came across these post.. all I have to say is that a few of you… no names mentioned… are seriously retarted! Does it matter if he had a bad past, people change. He was a great person and friend… Memory Eternal.

  89. Alaskan girl…is this Marie?

  90. Alaskan girl…is this Marie?

  91. I would like to say first I’m so sorry Dean and Penny and the whole family,you guys know how I feel! I had to post this because I loved Cy and his entire family,he truely was one of my best friends ever. With that being said, I’m coming to his defense so hide the children because I’m about to blast this BITCH. Count these spelling mistakes,there could be a few ,I can’t see straight I’m so pissed right now. Your talkin about toxicology reports for the victoms?Are fukin retarded.Do you really thinkCy made derogatory comments to an elder?You dumb bitch Cy wasn’t like that,EVER,and that little bitch who shot him is totally liying,it was all set-up so he didnt have to pay CY.And to say Nora left her children,what the hell are you talkin about,wheres your child,and who the fuck are you to say Nora can’t date someone 10yrs. younger,you are truely a dumb bitch. I just looked up the term”define failure” and there you where with your idiotic comments! I could just keep goin off on your sensless,classless,uneducated,selfcentered,child abanding ass but my son just woke up and I would rather be with him.And my son WILL know everything about Cy.How great of a friend he was,how great of an athlete he was,how great of a family member he was,he will know everything about Cy because he was a great human and NEVER deserved this NEVER,NEVER,NEVER. lets reflect on the word KARMA. YOU WILL GET YOURS FOR YOUR TERRIBLE COMMENTS,SOON! You can bet on that,its a lock! Oh and by the way if you google cy,he wasn’t in jail all over the country you dumb fuck,WOW I feel so much better,Dean&Penny I’m sorry for the language but I really couldnt help. GOD BLESS THE BRUNNER FAMILY!!!!!!!

  92. Rich"lou"Hollowell

    I would like to say first I’m so sorry Dean and Penny and the whole family,you guys know how I feel! I had to post this because I loved Cy and his entire family,he truely was one of my best friends ever. With that being said, I’m coming to his defense so hide the children because I’m about to blast this BITCH. Count these spelling mistakes,there could be a few ,I can’t see straight I’m so pissed right now. Your talkin about toxicology reports for the victoms?Are fukin retarded.Do you really thinkCy made derogatory comments to an elder?You dumb bitch Cy wasn’t like that,EVER,and that little bitch who shot him is totally liying,it was all set-up so he didnt have to pay CY.And to say Nora left her children,what the hell are you talkin about,wheres your child,and who the fuck are you to say Nora can’t date someone 10yrs. younger,you are truely a dumb bitch. I just looked up the term”define failure” and there you where with your idiotic comments! I could just keep goin off on your sensless,classless,uneducated,selfcentered,child abanding ass but my son just woke up and I would rather be with him.And my son WILL know everything about Cy.How great of a friend he was,how great of an athlete he was,how great of a family member he was,he will know everything about Cy because he was a great human and NEVER deserved this NEVER,NEVER,NEVER. lets reflect on the word KARMA. YOU WILL GET YOURS FOR YOUR TERRIBLE COMMENTS,SOON! You can bet on that,its a lock! Oh and by the way if you google cy,he wasn’t in jail all over the country you dumb fuck,WOW I feel so much better,Dean&Penny I’m sorry for the language but I really couldnt help. GOD BLESS THE BRUNNER FAMILY!!!!!!!

  93. Nope, its not, but her best friend Juliana… Fr. Paul J’s daughter…

  94. Nope, its not, but her best friend Juliana… Fr. Paul J’s daughter…

  95. Ditto Rich! Cy was the best friend anyone could have. You two were the best ever! Friend till the end. Both awesome guys. I don’t care what people say, let them think what they want but when they mess with Penny and Dean is when I get pissed too.

    I’m right there with you! Ditto on your comments.

    Becky

  96. Ditto Rich! Cy was the best friend anyone could have. You two were the best ever! Friend till the end. Both awesome guys. I don’t care what people say, let them think what they want but when they mess with Penny and Dean is when I get pissed too.

    I’m right there with you! Ditto on your comments.

    Becky

  97. Brunner Family, I pray that the God may bless you all with peace and comfort each and every day as these times are very hard for all of you. May you all continue your faith in Jesus Christ for your strength each day. Jesus will heal!
    I was very discouraged to hear about how someone would bring up a person’s past when a family has just lost a son, brother, brother-in-law, nephew, cousin, etc. Cy’s past is irrelevant at this time. I personally knew Cy since he was in Junior High and really got to know him in our mid-twenty’s when we hung out for about 2 to 3 years before he went off to Bellhaven College. Cy and I hung out socially and athletically. All though we both made many mistakes through those years Cy’s heart never changed. I judge a man by his heart not on his outward appearance. Cy had an incredible heart. Cy was always worried about everyone else being happy around him, and that is what made him happy. I have now been a reborn Christian for 8 years. For the past 8 years I have drawn closer to God every year that has past. After reading all of Cy’s writings I now feel closer to him then I ever did in my past. I now know how hard it was for Cy and wrestling with the demons that haunted and tormented him. Every day God reaches his hand out to us, because that is how much God loves us, but it is up to us to take his hand. Many times I as a Christian decide not to thinking that I can handle certain temptations and tribulations on my own. But I can not get through them without God’s help. God is a good and caring Father who will sometimes remove us from certain situations because we can’t. I believe God took Cy out of Goleta to save Cy and I thank God that he was sent to Bellhaven College. I believe there Cy grew closer to God and realized his true strength was Jesus Christ and there he was able to confront his Demons in the name of Jesus Christ his Lord and Personal Savior. One must truly repent with their tongue and with their heart before there is true healing, and I believe that happened for Cy at Bellhaven College. It is obviuos when you read his writings. 1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness”
    2 Corinthians 5: 17 “Therefore if any man be in Christ he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold,all things are become new.”
    James 4:7-8 “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.”
    Through Cy’s writings it sounds like he was starting to get peace and began to heal from his past. Praise God!
    To me, the most important thing is that Cyrus Dean Brunner is now in heaven. He has no more tears, no more pain, no more sorrows, no more worries, no more sleepless nights. Cyrus is now home.
    Today I ask you. If you were to die today, do you know for sure that you would go to heaven?
    If you are not sure, make sure today and know that you too will see Cy in heaven. In the bible it states in Romans 10:13 ” For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” Today without hestitation accept Jesus Christ as your personal Savior. As children of God we are only saved by God’s grace. It does not say that we have to always do good things every day to get to heaven. It is not about our works that will save us it is about God’s grace. Take these steps today in the quietness of your heart just between you and God. First, realize that God loves you… John 3:16 ” For God so loved the the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” Secondly, realize that everyone is a sinner… Romans 3:23 ” For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.”
    Thirdly, realize sin has a price that must be paid… Romans 6:23 ” For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” Fourthly, realize that Jesus Christ died to pay your price… Romans 10:13 ” But God commendth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” Finally , pray, ask Jesus Christ to be your Savior, and claim His promise of eternal life… Romans 10:13 ” For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”
    If you have taken these steps, you are now saved by God’s grace and you are for sure going to heaven. I am sure this would bring a smile to Cy’s face right now. Amen!
    Thank you Cy for all the memories and I will truly miss you here on Earth, but soon I will soon see you in Glory. I know Cy when you came face to face with our creator that he said to you “Good and faithful servant, well done.”

  98. Brunner Family, I pray that the God may bless you all with peace and comfort each and every day as these times are very hard for all of you. May you all continue your faith in Jesus Christ for your strength each day. Jesus will heal!
    I was very discouraged to hear about how someone would bring up a person’s past when a family has just lost a son, brother, brother-in-law, nephew, cousin, etc. Cy’s past is irrelevant at this time. I personally knew Cy since he was in Junior High and really got to know him in our mid-twenty’s when we hung out for about 2 to 3 years before he went off to Bellhaven College. Cy and I hung out socially and athletically. All though we both made many mistakes through those years Cy’s heart never changed. I judge a man by his heart not on his outward appearance. Cy had an incredible heart. Cy was always worried about everyone else being happy around him, and that is what made him happy. I have now been a reborn Christian for 8 years. For the past 8 years I have drawn closer to God every year that has past. After reading all of Cy’s writings I now feel closer to him then I ever did in my past. I now know how hard it was for Cy and wrestling with the demons that haunted and tormented him. Every day God reaches his hand out to us, because that is how much God loves us, but it is up to us to take his hand. Many times I as a Christian decide not to thinking that I can handle certain temptations and tribulations on my own. But I can not get through them without God’s help. God is a good and caring Father who will sometimes remove us from certain situations because we can’t. I believe God took Cy out of Goleta to save Cy and I thank God that he was sent to Bellhaven College. I believe there Cy grew closer to God and realized his true strength was Jesus Christ and there he was able to confront his Demons in the name of Jesus Christ his Lord and Personal Savior. One must truly repent with their tongue and with their heart before there is true healing, and I believe that happened for Cy at Bellhaven College. It is obviuos when you read his writings. 1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness”
    2 Corinthians 5: 17 “Therefore if any man be in Christ he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold,all things are become new.”
    James 4:7-8 “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.”
    Through Cy’s writings it sounds like he was starting to get peace and began to heal from his past. Praise God!
    To me, the most important thing is that Cyrus Dean Brunner is now in heaven. He has no more tears, no more pain, no more sorrows, no more worries, no more sleepless nights. Cyrus is now home.
    Today I ask you. If you were to die today, do you know for sure that you would go to heaven?
    If you are not sure, make sure today and know that you too will see Cy in heaven. In the bible it states in Romans 10:13 ” For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.” Today without hestitation accept Jesus Christ as your personal Savior. As children of God we are only saved by God’s grace. It does not say that we have to always do good things every day to get to heaven. It is not about our works that will save us it is about God’s grace. Take these steps today in the quietness of your heart just between you and God. First, realize that God loves you… John 3:16 ” For God so loved the the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” Secondly, realize that everyone is a sinner… Romans 3:23 ” For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.”
    Thirdly, realize sin has a price that must be paid… Romans 6:23 ” For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.” Fourthly, realize that Jesus Christ died to pay your price… Romans 10:13 ” But God commendth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” Finally , pray, ask Jesus Christ to be your Savior, and claim His promise of eternal life… Romans 10:13 ” For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”
    If you have taken these steps, you are now saved by God’s grace and you are for sure going to heaven. I am sure this would bring a smile to Cy’s face right now. Amen!
    Thank you Cy for all the memories and I will truly miss you here on Earth, but soon I will soon see you in Glory. I know Cy when you came face to face with our creator that he said to you “Good and faithful servant, well done.”

  99. Well said Mikey V. I miss having you guys around. Glad you are in a good place now too. Cy is probably making sure we are all taken care of now. He’s in the perfect place to watch over all his friends and family now. He can be with everyone all of the time.

    Forever his friend and yours,
    I miss you Cy!
    Becky Girvin 🙂

  100. Well said Mikey V. I miss having you guys around. Glad you are in a good place now too. Cy is probably making sure we are all taken care of now. He’s in the perfect place to watch over all his friends and family now. He can be with everyone all of the time.

    Forever his friend and yours,
    I miss you Cy!
    Becky Girvin 🙂

  101. Dearest Cy,
    There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you…your laugh, your smile. We had many fun times together, and you gave me words of wisdom, and strength when I needed them. Little did I know that the greatest gift you would leave me with was a “rock” in my life. Someone who I feel God whispered to you was the one for me…you saved two aching hearts, and created one happy whole. I love you for that. I thank God for you Cy, and I can only imagine the angels that surround you in heaven, and the laughter and joy you bring them. You are now our gaurdian angel, what a true blessing. I love you, and I miss you dearly. I often wish you were here to see what you were responsible for, but I know in my heart your always right here with me and I can picture your face with that great big smile, and the satisfied look you have when you have made others happy. God Bless you.

  102. Dearest Cy,
    There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think about you…your laugh, your smile. We had many fun times together, and you gave me words of wisdom, and strength when I needed them. Little did I know that the greatest gift you would leave me with was a “rock” in my life. Someone who I feel God whispered to you was the one for me…you saved two aching hearts, and created one happy whole. I love you for that. I thank God for you Cy, and I can only imagine the angels that surround you in heaven, and the laughter and joy you bring them. You are now our gaurdian angel, what a true blessing. I love you, and I miss you dearly. I often wish you were here to see what you were responsible for, but I know in my heart your always right here with me and I can picture your face with that great big smile, and the satisfied look you have when you have made others happy. God Bless you.

  103. I have always been bullied. I don’t know what it is about me exactly, but I just DRAW bullies. I met Cy in Elementary School. But really got to know him in 7th Grade. Cy and I had the same Home Ec. class. When we started our sewing projects, yes SEWING, All us guys felt a little feminine. Cy? HE LOVED it. Not only did he love it, he was a MASTER at needle point. I kid you NOT. See we all had to make these draw string cloth bags in class. I distinctly remember Cy finishing before anyone else and hoisting this garment bag above his head…so Proud, like he just caught a 700 pound marlin and wanted EVERYONE to know. In essence he made sewing “cool” for us Alpha Males. But back to my earlier point I became friends with Cy, and after that NO ONE bullied me. They were too afraid of Cy. We worshipped him. He was going out with Nicole Carrico, who was so beautiful everyone was in love with her. You couldn’t help it.

    They made sense as a pair. And formally cemented his reputation as the next James Dean. You think Cy’s middle name was a coincidence? His parents must of known something when he was still in the womb!

    I wrote this a while ago. I feel like this is best how I see Cy. As if he was speaking these very words to me:

    feel you in my soul. Your breath comes out my mouth.

    I feel light as a bird, the night is now my friend.
    Comforting and powerful it fuels the Fire within my Rage.
    Call upon you I will; teach me how to survive.

    Death is not forever; neither is night,
    Shadows do I roam, waiting for a fight.

    Your strength is powerful; Yet I yearn for more…
    A humble servant I am not; …Listening to a distant shore.

    My senses are alive!, I am part of the Wild.
    Black is my color; Red was…When I was a child.

    I feel your anguish; I taste your tears,
    I feel your stare, am frightened by your fears.

    A mystery am I, the night is my guide,
    Justice shall prevail, to me you will abide.
    A Ghost? am I? …Don’t try to stop me;
    The night is my camouflage, Everything can I see.

    Can I play with madness? Can I stop the pain?
    I must go on through, crying to feel shame.

    I will Protect you! Quiet your screams of Heartache…
    Death is not Forever; Just an Earthly mistake.
    Pound your fists to the Walls and Cry if you must;
    But know that I am here, Protecting you Trust.

    For you have given me the edge…The Strength that I need,
    The Innocent I will protect…Their Violators will I make Bleed.

    I shall return to the Night for it is calling once more…
    To do my Duty once again; to which I adore…….

    Short is Life. Desperately clinging in the end; We are so Spoiled!

  104. I have always been bullied. I don’t know what it is about me exactly, but I just DRAW bullies. I met Cy in Elementary School. But really got to know him in 7th Grade. Cy and I had the same Home Ec. class. When we started our sewing projects, yes SEWING, All us guys felt a little feminine. Cy? HE LOVED it. Not only did he love it, he was a MASTER at needle point. I kid you NOT. See we all had to make these draw string cloth bags in class. I distinctly remember Cy finishing before anyone else and hoisting this garment bag above his head…so Proud, like he just caught a 700 pound marlin and wanted EVERYONE to know. In essence he made sewing “cool” for us Alpha Males. But back to my earlier point I became friends with Cy, and after that NO ONE bullied me. They were too afraid of Cy. We worshipped him. He was going out with Nicole Carrico, who was so beautiful everyone was in love with her. You couldn’t help it.

    They made sense as a pair. And formally cemented his reputation as the next James Dean. You think Cy’s middle name was a coincidence? His parents must of known something when he was still in the womb!

    I wrote this a while ago. I feel like this is best how I see Cy. As if he was speaking these very words to me:

    feel you in my soul. Your breath comes out my mouth.

    I feel light as a bird, the night is now my friend.
    Comforting and powerful it fuels the Fire within my Rage.
    Call upon you I will; teach me how to survive.

    Death is not forever; neither is night,
    Shadows do I roam, waiting for a fight.

    Your strength is powerful; Yet I yearn for more…
    A humble servant I am not; …Listening to a distant shore.

    My senses are alive!, I am part of the Wild.
    Black is my color; Red was…When I was a child.

    I feel your anguish; I taste your tears,
    I feel your stare, am frightened by your fears.

    A mystery am I, the night is my guide,
    Justice shall prevail, to me you will abide.
    A Ghost? am I? …Don’t try to stop me;
    The night is my camouflage, Everything can I see.

    Can I play with madness? Can I stop the pain?
    I must go on through, crying to feel shame.

    I will Protect you! Quiet your screams of Heartache…
    Death is not Forever; Just an Earthly mistake.
    Pound your fists to the Walls and Cry if you must;
    But know that I am here, Protecting you Trust.

    For you have given me the edge…The Strength that I need,
    The Innocent I will protect…Their Violators will I make Bleed.

    I shall return to the Night for it is calling once more…
    To do my Duty once again; to which I adore…….

    Short is Life. Desperately clinging in the end; We are so Spoiled!

  105. I was also in that Home Ec. class, I remember Cy and the garmet bag!! He actually instinctively figured out how to sew better than the rest of us (as with most everything else) and was the first to finish that and other projects. As with other classes I had with Cy, he had this unique way of doing very well at everything, yet still keeping a independent edge to his personality that let everyone know HE was the one in charge. I totally agree with Troy….to our group of friends, Cy always was that James Dean kind of figure, even in home econ…we felt stronger, and safer with our surroundings, knowing that he was there to lead us through such trivial tasks as sewing and making dust pans!!! Cy was the guy who could be focused on creative writing one minute, then go out on the field and knock the wind out of you in sports the next…Aww..there is not a week that goes by that I still can’t believe what happened to him. 🙁

  106. I was also in that Home Ec. class, I remember Cy and the garmet bag!! He actually instinctively figured out how to sew better than the rest of us (as with most everything else) and was the first to finish that and other projects. As with other classes I had with Cy, he had this unique way of doing very well at everything, yet still keeping a independent edge to his personality that let everyone know HE was the one in charge. I totally agree with Troy….to our group of friends, Cy always was that James Dean kind of figure, even in home econ…we felt stronger, and safer with our surroundings, knowing that he was there to lead us through such trivial tasks as sewing and making dust pans!!! Cy was the guy who could be focused on creative writing one minute, then go out on the field and knock the wind out of you in sports the next…Aww..there is not a week that goes by that I still can’t believe what happened to him. 🙁

  107. Yeah I just went to ANOTHER memorial. A guy that Cy was friends with and that I grew up with, Steve Perez, his mother died a few days ago. Coolest mother EVER. Died of Cancer. Steve hung in like a champ.
    Why do all the good guys DIE…
    And psycho child killers get a reprieve from their acts of horror and their execution gets stopped at the last second…
    Yeah I hear you. I played football with Cy ONCE…and only once. He almost put me in the hospital! hahahah…If he was a foot taller he would of DEFINATELY have been in the NFL.

  108. Yeah I just went to ANOTHER memorial. A guy that Cy was friends with and that I grew up with, Steve Perez, his mother died a few days ago. Coolest mother EVER. Died of Cancer. Steve hung in like a champ.
    Why do all the good guys DIE…
    And psycho child killers get a reprieve from their acts of horror and their execution gets stopped at the last second…
    Yeah I hear you. I played football with Cy ONCE…and only once. He almost put me in the hospital! hahahah…If he was a foot taller he would of DEFINATELY have been in the NFL.

  109. I just found this site while looking to see if any improvements have been made on convicting Cy’s killers. I met cyrus when he moved to miss. and have not had anyone impact my life in a positive way as much as he did. Cy is the main reason that i returned to school after “taking a break” that lasted for three years. I was not present at the FCA meeting where he spoke but he told me some of that same story one-on-one. Cy is the only reason that at age 24 i decided to start playing college sports, even though i hadn’t played in over 5 years. I just want Dean and Penny to know how he made it a point to positively affect the lives of others by telling them the mistakes he made. He showed that he was not ashamed because those mistakes may have been tough at times but they formed the cyrus that we think of today. A good man who lost his life but will forever live in our hearts.

    The one thing that I learned from Cy is that people like the vicious ones that took his life, as well as the ignorant cowards who try and disgrace the name of someone who is not here to defend him or herself, are not worth me arguing with and don’t deserve to even have their name mentioned. They are selfish people that have to take their agressions out on others for their own mistakes, and will never admit any wrong-doing.

    Cyrus Brunner has and always will be the most prominent influence in my life. If it weren’t for him I would not be where I am today. I am proud to say that i knew him and will never forget the strong-willed son of Dean and Penny that never quit trying to help others and change himself for the better. Cy should be honored, and mourned; but then his life, his accomplishments, and his positive influence on others should be celebrated. May his memory be eternal.

  110. I just found this site while looking to see if any improvements have been made on convicting Cy’s killers. I met cyrus when he moved to miss. and have not had anyone impact my life in a positive way as much as he did. Cy is the main reason that i returned to school after “taking a break” that lasted for three years. I was not present at the FCA meeting where he spoke but he told me some of that same story one-on-one. Cy is the only reason that at age 24 i decided to start playing college sports, even though i hadn’t played in over 5 years. I just want Dean and Penny to know how he made it a point to positively affect the lives of others by telling them the mistakes he made. He showed that he was not ashamed because those mistakes may have been tough at times but they formed the cyrus that we think of today. A good man who lost his life but will forever live in our hearts.

    The one thing that I learned from Cy is that people like the vicious ones that took his life, as well as the ignorant cowards who try and disgrace the name of someone who is not here to defend him or herself, are not worth me arguing with and don’t deserve to even have their name mentioned. They are selfish people that have to take their agressions out on others for their own mistakes, and will never admit any wrong-doing.

    Cyrus Brunner has and always will be the most prominent influence in my life. If it weren’t for him I would not be where I am today. I am proud to say that i knew him and will never forget the strong-willed son of Dean and Penny that never quit trying to help others and change himself for the better. Cy should be honored, and mourned; but then his life, his accomplishments, and his positive influence on others should be celebrated. May his memory be eternal.

  111. Thanks Penny. I read every word and will show it to my boys. You are always in my thoughts.
    Love, Janine

  112. Thanks Penny. I read every word and will show it to my boys. You are always in my thoughts.
    Love, Janine

  113. Update to Cy’s murder trial. There has finally been a solid date set of 7/28/08 for Daniel Clayton. His mother is being tried in a separate court room. Her trial date is still tentative – currently 8/4/08. The trial dates have already been continued several times because the courts hear the older cases first.

    As of today, the DA’s office in Jackson, MS feel they have enough evidence to convict Daniel Clayton and Addie Clayton regardless of a confession. Cyrus and Nora Lee were murdered in cold blood!

    For those of you who have been asking the question……Toxicology reports did finally come back and Cy’s system was completely CLEAN. They tested for everything and there were no drugs or alcohol in his system.

    For those of you who have asked the questions because they really care – our family appreciates your ongoing support.

    My email is: jami.stetler@gmail.com. Please feel free to contact me directly for further info.

  114. Update to Cy’s murder trial. There has finally been a solid date set of 7/28/08 for Daniel Clayton. His mother is being tried in a separate court room. Her trial date is still tentative – currently 8/4/08. The trial dates have already been continued several times because the courts hear the older cases first.

    As of today, the DA’s office in Jackson, MS feel they have enough evidence to convict Daniel Clayton and Addie Clayton regardless of a confession. Cyrus and Nora Lee were murdered in cold blood!

    For those of you who have been asking the question……Toxicology reports did finally come back and Cy’s system was completely CLEAN. They tested for everything and there were no drugs or alcohol in his system.

    For those of you who have asked the questions because they really care – our family appreciates your ongoing support.

    My email is: jami.stetler@gmail.com. Please feel free to contact me directly for further info.

  115. On Wednesday, July30th, Daniel Clayton was convicted on 2 counts of murder and sentenced to 2 life terms in prison to be served consecutively.

    He’s been sent to Parchman in Mississippi. His booking photo is in the link below (you may have to copy/paste). Note the 2 teardrops signifying the 2 lives he has taken, that were tatooed below his eye after he was initially booked into jail. He tried to hide them with a bandaid during the trial.

    http://www.mdoc.state.ms.us/InmateDetails.asp?PassedId=140971

  116. On Wednesday, July30th, Daniel Clayton was convicted on 2 counts of murder and sentenced to 2 life terms in prison to be served consecutively.

    He’s been sent to Parchman in Mississippi. His booking photo is in the link below (you may have to copy/paste). Note the 2 teardrops signifying the 2 lives he has taken, that were tatooed below his eye after he was initially booked into jail. He tried to hide them with a bandaid during the trial.

    http://www.mdoc.state.ms.us/InmateDetails.asp?PassedId=140971

  117. I have never met a more gifted athlete or watched someone who lit up a room more then Cy. I have been watching this conversation silently from afar since I heard the terrible news. My respects to the entire family.

    Doug Peete

  118. I have never met a more gifted athlete or watched someone who lit up a room more then Cy. I have been watching this conversation silently from afar since I heard the terrible news. My respects to the entire family.

    Doug Peete

  119. Penny Brunner, Cy's Mom

    It’s been a long time since anyone has written on this blog. I just want to say once again to all who have written, thank you for all your kind words about my beloved son. It has been over 2 1/2 years now since he was taken from us and it still hurts every single day. Just in case anyone is wondering, Daniel Clayton’s mother “walked” as we were told there was do direct evidence to link her to the case. I find it really amazing that the whole reason this blog even began was because it was reported right from the beginning that his mother went and picked him up after he killed Cy and Nora Lee. Not only that, but that she hid the gun and cut up his clothes and yet she has escaped the penalty she deserved. I am so thankful I believe that true justice really does not take place on this earth. Mrs. Clayton will have to answer to a much bigger authority some day. I actually feel very sorry for this woman and I would certainly not want to be in her shoes after she dies. It does not matter a whole lot that she walked because nothing will ever bring back Cyrus or Nora Lee, but it says a lot about our justice system when something seemingly so easy to convict winds up not having any validity in our courts. It’s a very sorry commentary on what we hold up as the law and the truth. Again, thank you to everyone who has cared enough to contribute positive things here. It has really helped me to hear comments from Cy’s old and dear friends as well as people who I hardly know or don’t know at all whose lives he has touched. My life is so much richer knowing so many of you loved him and cared enough to say such nice things about him and our family. It is still such a wonderful feeling to know that people are still being touched by his life and his struggles. Thank you all and may God abundantly bless you.

  120. Penny Brunner, Cy's Mom

    It’s been a long time since anyone has written on this blog. I just want to say once again to all who have written, thank you for all your kind words about my beloved son. It has been over 2 1/2 years now since he was taken from us and it still hurts every single day. Just in case anyone is wondering, Daniel Clayton’s mother “walked” as we were told there was do direct evidence to link her to the case. I find it really amazing that the whole reason this blog even began was because it was reported right from the beginning that his mother went and picked him up after he killed Cy and Nora Lee. Not only that, but that she hid the gun and cut up his clothes and yet she has escaped the penalty she deserved. I am so thankful I believe that true justice really does not take place on this earth. Mrs. Clayton will have to answer to a much bigger authority some day. I actually feel very sorry for this woman and I would certainly not want to be in her shoes after she dies. It does not matter a whole lot that she walked because nothing will ever bring back Cyrus or Nora Lee, but it says a lot about our justice system when something seemingly so easy to convict winds up not having any validity in our courts. It’s a very sorry commentary on what we hold up as the law and the truth. Again, thank you to everyone who has cared enough to contribute positive things here. It has really helped me to hear comments from Cy’s old and dear friends as well as people who I hardly know or don’t know at all whose lives he has touched. My life is so much richer knowing so many of you loved him and cared enough to say such nice things about him and our family. It is still such a wonderful feeling to know that people are still being touched by his life and his struggles. Thank you all and may God abundantly bless you.

  121. I am sorry for your loss of Cy. I cared for him deeply. I only recently found out about his death. My name is Lisa, I am from Everson, Washington. I am sorry he didn’t get to see Alyssa again before he died. I talked to him about 10 years ago, he called me from work asked me to come to Mississippi. I never went, I am sorry. Zack it was a pleasure to have met you and your family. Cyrus Dean Brunner I will always love you.

  122. I am deeply sorry for your lost…. My name is Thanh Phung, i attended school with Cy from the 7th grade through high school. We didn’t say much to each other, we were caught up with our own groups, i suppose…. I just found out about Cy’s death today…. what a short life he lived…. My deepest condolences to the Brunner family and the Acuna family as well.

  123. My Name is Matt Thomson.

    I grew up in Goleta and still have family and friends there. I was friends with Jamie, Zach and Cy.

    I remember Mr Brunner coming to our house to ask my brother Xander to pitch on his little league team.

    When I heard Cy had been killed I was saddened and shocked. I could not believe that something like that had happened to a great kid, his wonderful familily ( Simonsens included !) and the Goleta of my youth.

    Mrs. Brunner, I saw you in Albertson’s a few years ago when I was in town and I should have approached you to tell you how sorry I was. I just did not have the courage. He was a wonderful person.

    Rest in Peace Cy….

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